NOT freaking out!!!! - CHRIS

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I found the email yesterday that you sent me, I am not sure what day. It is

the one, where you mention the Alternative Medicine Digest and some links -

breast cancer. I went back to the main board page and searched for

---probably 3 hours. I couldn't find it. I found one that pam b. had put

up, but I don't think that was it. If you have it handy can you send it to

me. Thanks.

Well, it is 4 AM. I popped out of a sleep!!! I'm not thyroid freaking out.

When I was searching for the link last night, I came across the post of your

aunt. Where was my head that day!!! I totally missed it, when you posted

it! I am really sorry those jerks did that to your aunt!!! My opinion, they

likely wanted some tissue for their class and decided your aunt was the best

candidate. The brought the picture in to her, likely because they could not

use the tissue as a specimin without some sort of consent, even verbal, and I

wouldn't put it past them to lie saying they have consent, when they don't!!!!

I don't know how you restrained yourself during that time, I would have done

some beating up of some people!!!!

Prior to reading about your aunt, I am walking along in La-La Land for a few

weeks, due to the {{{{{{narcotics}}}}}} they had put me on....BIG

MISTAKE!!!!! Then going thru the {{{{{{{withdrawals}}}}}}}}.....just like

hyper-hyper symptoms, etc. etc. Meet with the surgeon, read everything I can

find, everything matches up, doesn't seem like they are feeding me any

crap.....then I freak out, etc. etc.......Feeling much better yesterday, more

research, posting to the board.....

THEN....... I COME ACROSS AND READ what you wrote about your aunt! I am

thinking ..OH....MY.....GOSH......HOW COULD THEY DO THAT TO

SOMEONE!!!!!.......

I think, I better do a little more research on this surgeon, not enough info

on him!

I find some PRETTY good info., but uncover some more lies that I had been

told, regarding the other surgeons I had met with for the possible thyroid

surgery way back when....

this surgeon for this surgery now is from Minnesota, new to my hospital. Has

1 law suit on his record for the past 30 years, settled out of court and the

person recieved average payment, etc. etc. He has been involved with

different research. One with technitium 99, using a filtered method, in

which they use to identify the lymphatic system, in that study, the docs

involved felt, more research necessary, due to excess lymph nodes possibly

being removed needlessly because this filtered method makes secondary

lymphnodes show up also. (I thought that's good)

He was or is, I can't seem to find it, on the Board of Directors for the

American Cancer Society. hmmmm that could be good...maybe...

I go to my insurance site to see what is covered, to make sure all the I's

are dotted and T's are crossed in that area......I come across... " No cosmetic

surgery coverage " ....now I am thinking....If this situation, makes me in a

bad way...would this be covered?....prep...in case semi-worse or worse

senarios.....I figure, I better talk to them to find out tommorrow....another

phone call.....

etc. etc. I still have this funny feeling, I tell my hubby, last night,

everything seems smooth and the right thing, BUT.....something doesn't feel

right.....my instinct is telling me something.....my hubby automatically

thinks I am starting to freak.....because I was talking louder....I wasn't

freaking, I was focusing out loud, intense, trying to find what my instinct

was saying.....we talk for a few minutes.....He says I should get

rest....yadda, yadda....

Then after reading until, everything was too blury...I go watch Discovery

Channel.....watch some cool mummies and stuff on King Tut and fall asleep...

NOW it's 4 AM.....I POP out of sleep........

1) Drug induced sleep anestisia? (unless something doesn't work out like I

freak? then general?) EXCUSS ME?????? ----it was the look on the

anestisiolgists face when he said that was the standard practice,etc. etc.~

I been in drug induced sleep, you FEEL it!!! I don't think sooo.....

It dawns on me...

2) Are talking about the right surgery?......(in the begining, there were

some miscommunications as to the type of surgery it was to

be.....nurses.....my gyn, etc......thought sterostatic.....this is

excisional---2-3inch incision!!!!~~~~sterostatic uses drug induced sleep---if

they use that type of ansestisia...)

The biggest RISK to excisional is the.....GENERAL ANESTESIA!!!! ON

EVERYTHING I HAVE READ!!!!!....NO talk about drug induced sleep for this type

of surgery!!!!

4) Then I get to thinking.......WAIT A MINUTE....when I met with the surgeon,

he says the incision will be here or here, based on where they do the

needles.....HERE OR HERE!!!!~2-3 inch?.......EXCUSE ME????

5) The radiologist......when I called and talked again to her regarding how

many needles exactly, 1 or 3?...miscommunication....etc.....she didn't have

the films....and told me, " if I told you 3 than it would " " " " likely " " " " " be 3

needles " .........LIKELY????........EXCUSE ME!......That is the difference

between a quarter size tissue, and a golf ball size!!!.....especially when I

don't have much in that area, without my EXTRA - TOOO MUCH ESTROGEN......THAT

NO ONE HAS EVER DONE ANY BLOOD LEVELS ON~~~~EVER~~~~NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES

I HAVE BROUGHT UP THE SUBJECT!!!

EXUUUSE MEEE......these are tiny pen point dots, all close together.....WHAT

DOES HE MEAN ----HERE OR HERE?......

I do think that should be PRE-COORDIATED!!!!....and I should know EXACTLY

WHERE OR WHAT???? ~BEFOREHAND!!!!~

Does this sound more like meeee????

I got some calls to make in the morning, I better get back to bed!

Thanks Chris!!!

Deb