Re: Changing the subject title..was Religious tolerance

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> > So he's sulking and whingeing and " " ing around and I am going

> > nuts!

>

> Ruthie I've been thinking so often about the problems you're having

> but it was enlightening to read your comment the other day about

?not

> always having been as religious as you are now.

Well..to clarify. My parents weren't nearly as religious as DH is, so

I was brought up less religious. It wasn't a question of me

straying,that was how I was. I was allowed to date boys and have fun.

I think I had my mid life crisis when I became embittered against my

first orthodox publishers. My reasoning was : " if so called orthodox

people can treat their authors like s**t, do I really want to

associate myself with such hypocrites? " Especially since I was

getting paid on the nail by non Jewish publishers of my articles,

short stories etc. This led to a real crisis in me which lasted for a

few years, during which I did not behave as I should. I don't want to

go into details but I am not proud of those years. My crisis was

ended sharply with Uri's death. I know you will poo-poo this but I

honestly feel it was a sign that I should stop and rethink my life.

I had a long hard struggle back. My lyric writing with shady and

decidedly unsavoury pop musicians was all part of it. I abandoned

that too. My family were suffering. I never wanted anyone to suffer

damage for my " adventures " .

So I do understand Yeshaya, both from the standpoint of how I was

brought up, and how I was during my crisis. It doesn't mean that I

shouldn't do my best from a standpoint of experience, and where I have

now reached, to make him the best person I possibly can achieve.

Ruthie

>

> I think it's great that you are doing everything to try to put him

on

> the right path but maybe your parents felt some similar

> despair/frustration when they thought you might be straying?

>

> I suppose it's that old thing about giving them roots and letting

them

> fly. Or something like that. Never was any good at quotes -

usually

> brilliant with phone numbers and number plates though!

>

> --

> Sue