contributing to my sadness/mood

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Tomorrow is the

"anniversary" of my devastating vehicle accident. On August 21,

2002 I rolled my van over and over and end to end 8 or 9 times according to the

accident investigator. I wasn't wearing a seat belt and was driving 90 mph.

Thank God it was a single vehicle accident so no one else was involved. I

was in bad shape MS-wise that day (had been for a couple of months). I

was having cognitive problems and was having double vision. I never, EVER

should have been driving.

My scalp was torn off, my neck was

broken, all my right posterior ribs were broken, lung collapsed, cuts and

gashes here and there..... I was flown from my small community to Barrows

Neurological Institute in Phoenix. I was in ICU for a week. It felt

like I was floating in and out of life.

But I did survive! I had too much

to live for:) My granddaughter was born one month after the

wreck. I went to the hospital to attend her birth. I was in a neck

brace and had those broken ribs but I still walked the distance down the hall

that I struggled to walk yesterday. It hit me yesterday that then I

walked it easier when was born than I did yesterday. How is that

possible?!? That makes me so sad to think how much I have

lost in the years since that day.

A year later my granddaughter, Maya, was

born. Another miracle I would have missed if I hadn't survived.

In 2004 I sold everything I owned and

moved to Alaska to live in the backwoods. I wanted "one more

adventure" and I got it in Alaska! We lived two miles from a

road in the middle of the bog. I went with my son, his wife and

four grandkids. Our water was hauled from our creek, no electricity --

just kerosene lamps and flashlights. I had to go in on a 4 wheeler and

was stuck there until we got an ARGO (tracked vehicle). There were black

bear, brown bear (Grizzly), moose and wolves all around us. It was a

paradise. I missed my daughter and the four grandkids I left behind in

Arizona so I moved back. I love the Arizona mountains and I'm glad to be

here.

I

am very thankful to be alive. Please don't get me wrong. But I am

mourning the losses I have experienced. I know you can all understand

that. I do appreciate you all so much!

love

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