Re: .......RE: Kay.......RE: Bucket List- Jackie

[Guest guest]



Until the MS I was always helping others.

But when life became too challenging......nothing.

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RE: Bucket List- Jackie

I know that sounded a little fatalistic, but if people knew just how miserable my life is they too would want the same thing. It’s not like I’m going to make it happen, but I can’t imagine another 10 yrs. of living like this. After a while you get to the point when you say enough is enough. How much longer and more can one person take? My whole life use to consist of “doing†for others, and being on the go, and always having several irons in the fire, and I thrived living such an active life. Little by little all of that has been taken from me. Maybe it’s the menopausal hormones talking, or MS depression, but I’m tired of not having a life, and no one but really all of you here to talk to and be my friends. I sure do appreciate that. And yes there are things I am thankful for, and I am grateful for what I do have. It’s just that I never imagined my life living in chronic pain, and with so many disabilities to deal with on a daily basis. So yes in 10 yrs. I will be happy to be with Jesus because then I’ll have a pain free AND new body.

My good arm looks like it may be a chronic pain condition too, so typing is going to be difficult, because I have a hard time not typing a lot to say. So I will probably try that Dragon speak eventually.

I could go on and expound on my misery, but I don’t want to bring everyone down. Hopefully this depression will cycle and I’ll see things a little brighter soon.

Hugs Jackie