Re: Kay.......RE: Bucket List- Jackie

[Guest guest]

Jackie, would you do something for me? Get...and wear...a magnetic hematite bracelet or necklace. I'll even make you one if you want. And if you can, go online and get a chuck of obsidian, both the hematite and the obsidian are grounding, and that is what you need right now. I could go on about why but it would get deeply into "woo-woo" land and I don't want to make you uncomfortable. Just trust me on this, ok?

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~*~ Akiba ~*~

Pragmatic Visionary

-- RE: Bucket List- Jackie

I know that sounded a little fatalistic, but if people knew just how miserable my life is they too would want the same thing. It’s not like I’m going to make it happen, but I can’t imagine another 10 yrs. of living like this. After a while you get to the point when you say enough is enough. How much longer and more can one person take? My whole life use to consist of “doing†for others, and being on the go, and always having several irons in the fire, and I thrived living such an active life. Little by little all of that has been taken from me. Maybe it’s the menopausal hormones talking, or MS depression, but I’m tired of not having a life, and no one but really all of you here to talk to and be my friends. I sure do appreciate that. And yes there are things I am thankful for, and I am grateful for what I do have. It’s just that I never imagined my life living in chronic pain, and with so many disabilities to deal with on a daily basis. So yes in 10 yrs. I will be happy to be with Jesus because then I’ll have a pain free AND new body.

My good arm looks like it may be a chronic pain condition too, so typing is going to be difficult, because I have a hard time not typing a lot to say. So I will probably try that Dragon speak eventually.

I could go on and expound on my misery, but I don’t want to bring everyone down. Hopefully this depression will cycle and I’ll see things a little brighter soon.

Hugs Jackie

[Guest guest]



Crikey Jackie,

You could be talking about me!

The step family is loud and proud and loves to party. On the rare occasion that I am dragged to one of the gatherings it takes DAYS to get myself back.

Even after all this time they haven't really accepted my MS. (It really is the invisible wheelchair.)

So I am probably seen as moody and a party-pooper rather than wary of potential overload situations. (sigh)

I am better than I was. In the early days 10 minutes of watching Moulin Rouge sent me into sensory overload - the kind of overwhelm that demanded total rest.

RE: Bucket List- Jackie

I know that sounded a little fatalistic, but if people knew just how miserable my life is they too would want the same thing. It’s not like I’m going to make it happen, but I can’t imagine another 10 yrs. of living like this. After a while you get to the point when you say enough is enough. How much longer and more can one person take? My whole life use to consist of “doing†for others, and being on the go, and always having several irons in the fire, and I thrived living such an active life. Little by little all of that has been taken from me. Maybe it’s the menopausal hormones talking, or MS depression, but I’m tired of not having a life, and no one but really all of you here to talk to and be my friends. I sure do appreciate that. And yes there are things I am thankful for, and I am grateful for what I do have. It’s just that I never imagined my life living in chronic pain, and with so many disabilities to deal with on a daily basis. So yes in 10 yrs. I will be happy to be with Jesus because then I’ll have a pain free AND new body.

My good arm looks like it may be a chronic pain condition too, so typing is going to be difficult, because I have a hard time not typing a lot to say. So I will probably try that Dragon speak eventually.

I could go on and expound on my misery, but I don’t want to bring everyone down. Hopefully this depression will cycle and I’ll see things a little brighter soon.

Hugs Jackie