Guest guest Posted September 24, 2011 Report Share Posted September 24, 2011 Hi everybody, here it is Sat. morning and I’m just about ready to go back to bed for a couple more hours before its time to get up for the day. My meds are just about ready to kick in, and before I get too rumdummy I wanted to check in and run a couple things past you all. First I feel so crappy lately all I want to do is sit at my desk, and not move. Every time I have to get up it hurts so bad, and walking is getting torturous my legs are having a difficult time wanting to move. I don’t know if it’s a progression or it’s because my added weight is causing the pain? Steve is convinced it’s my weight, and he is wanting me to go on the medifast diet, which I wouldn’t have a problem with, but their food tastes really bad. Most of it is soy based and I can’t stand soy. Plus with being on that low of carbs it wreaks havoc with my bowel functions. I’d have to take a laxative, but most if not all of them cause cramping, and a rawness feeling. I know the diet works, but I am in so much pain as it is, I just don’t know if I can add any other deprivation to my life. It’s not that I eat large amounts of food, and I have to watch my sugar intake so I sub with low glycemic sugar products. My Dr. says I should eat MORE because I had to make up a menu for 3 months to show her what I ate to try and bring my blood sugars down, so she said I wasn’t eating enough from what she saw. I’m just not that hungry, so I think I can do the medifast IF the food tasted better. So that’s one thing I am struggling with because I do want to try and lose weight, but I can’t exercise so I have to do it by diet alone, which I have done before but it left me so hungry, and right now I just don’t know if I have the mental stamina to deprive myself from food that tastes food. So quantity isn’t the problem. It’s the quality. The other thing I am struggling with is moving to Dallas, Oregon. It’s such a quaint little town with many amenities that would help me possibly feel better, like their aquatic center with PT warm water therapy. Not too warm, but warm enough to loosen my muscles up, and range of motion. Which both are pretty bad from lack of any type of land exercises because like I said above to move my legs are getting more and more painful I only get up when I have to. I actually force myself to get up some of the time because I know I have to at least keep moving some. And yes I take pain killers and a muscle relaxant, but my sensitivities are such that I can’t take enough but to just take the edge off. If I don’t move I can feel less pain, but as soon as I get up its like I never took anything. I use to be able to handle it, but I find it’s getting harder and harder to live with minimal relief. My Dr. and I have talked about it, but there really isn’t anything else I can take that I haven’t tried and can tolerate. So back to the PT, and water therapy. My biggest hurdle there, and this is beginning to become a problem, is my husband Steve. I am getting the distinct impression that he just does not want to move anywhere. He is completely satisfied to stay in this house thru retirement which will be in a couple years. I just can’t seem to impress upon him how many things I need to help me have a better quality of life. Yes we can slowly remodel this house and add a few things to make it more comfy, and handicap friendly. But I guess my dream to move to Dallas and be part of a small town with close amenities still lurks in the back of my mind, and after thinking and dreaming about it for over a year now, I am not getting the same level of enthusiasm from him. You know when someone is excited to do something and will make the effort to make it happen. That’s just not happening with Steve. He placates me and will listen when I talk about moving there, but he doesn’t do anything to check it out himself. So I have come to the conclusion that he is waiting until I get to the point where I will give up and resign myself to just staying put. And I am probably there now. I don’t have the energy to realize my dreams without help. So now I don’t even know if I want to move because it would only be what I want, and he would do it, but there’s no matching enthusiasm and I don’t want to do something if he isn’t really wanting to do it. I know the difference between he and I in sync with plans, and we both make the effort, but I don’t see that happening with this. So the big question, is can I be happy to stay here and fix things so I have a comfortable environment, and not be able to have any outside involvement, or if we moved would I even be able to regardless? I think he thinks we would get all moved and I wouldn’t feel well enough to go out anyhow, so if would be a waste. We’ve been in this house for 10 yrs, and not one of my female neighbors have tried to get to know me. After we moved in one said she was going to come over and welcome us to the neighborhood, but she never did. I usually am the one to make the first move whenever we move into a new place, but this time I wasn’t able to get out by myself. Plus most everyone works so I am alone most of the day. Well this has been a lot to take in, and I’d appreciate any ones thoughts about it. I’m heading back to bed now, so ttylater friends.Hugs, Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 24, 2011 Report Share Posted September 24, 2011 Jackie I am so sorry you are in so much pain and get little to no relief. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. Would having the dr talk to Steve help any? You could call him when Steve is working and maybe if he told him you needed the things that are in the other town that you don't have at the present he might decide it is a good idea? Hugs nne To the world you might be one person, but to one person you just might be the world " " May the Lord Bless you and keep you, May the Lord Make his face shine upon you, and give you Peace...Forever " Breast Cancer Patients Soul Mates for Life http://breastcancerpatientssoulmatesforlife.bravehost.com/ Anxiety Depression and Breast Cancer http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/AnxietyDepressionandBreastCancer Angel Feather Loomer www.angelfeatherloomer.blogspot.com The Cancer Club www.cancerclub.com > Thinking outloud....... > > Hi everybody, here it is Sat. morning and I'm just about ready to go back > to > bed for a couple more hours before its time to get up for the day. My > meds > are just about ready to kick in, and before I get too rumdummy I wanted > to > check in and run a couple things past you all. > > First I feel so crappy lately all I want to do is sit at my desk, and not > move. Every time I have to get up it hurts so bad, and walking is getting > torturous my legs are having a difficult time wanting to move. I don't > know > if it's a progression or it's because my added weight is causing the > pain? > Steve is convinced it's my weight, and he is wanting me to go on the > medifast diet, which I wouldn't have a problem with, but their food > tastes > really bad. Most of it is soy based and I can't stand soy. Plus with > being > on that low of carbs it wreaks havoc with my bowel functions. I'd have to > take a laxative, but most if not all of them cause cramping, and a > rawness > feeling. I know the diet works, but I am in so much pain as it is, I just > don't know if I can add any other deprivation to my life. It's not that I > eat large amounts of food, and I have to watch my sugar intake so I sub > with > low glycemic sugar products. My Dr. says I should eat MORE because I had > to > make up a menu for 3 months to show her what I ate to try and bring my > blood > sugars down, so she said I wasn't eating enough from what she saw. I'm > just > not that hungry, so I think I can do the medifast IF the food tasted > better. > So that's one thing I am struggling with because I do want to try and > lose > weight, but I can't exercise so I have to do it by diet alone, which I > have > done before but it left me so hungry, and right now I just don't know if > I > have the mental stamina to deprive myself from food that tastes food. So > quantity isn't the problem. It's the quality. > > > > The other thing I am struggling with is moving to Dallas, Oregon. It's > such > a quaint little town with many amenities that would help me possibly feel > better, like their aquatic center with PT warm water therapy. Not too > warm, > but warm enough to loosen my muscles up, and range of motion. Which both > are > pretty bad from lack of any type of land exercises because like I said > above > to move my legs are getting more and more painful I only get up when I > have > to. I actually force myself to get up some of the time because I know I > have > to at least keep moving some. And yes I take pain killers and a muscle > relaxant, but my sensitivities are such that I can't take enough but to > just > take the edge off. If I don't move I can feel less pain, but as soon as I > get up its like I never took anything. I use to be able to handle it, but > I > find it's getting harder and harder to live with minimal relief. My Dr. > and > I have talked about it, but there really isn't anything else I can take > that > I haven't tried and can tolerate. So back to the PT, and water therapy. > My > biggest hurdle there, and this is beginning to become a problem, is my > husband Steve. I am getting the distinct impression that he just does not > want to move anywhere. He is completely satisfied to stay in this house > thru > retirement which will be in a couple years. I just can't seem to impress > upon him how many things I need to help me have a better quality of life. > Yes we can slowly remodel this house and add a few things to make it more > comfy, and handicap friendly. But I guess my dream to move to Dallas and > be > part of a small town with close amenities still lurks in the back of my > mind, and after thinking and dreaming about it for over a year now, I am > not > getting the same level of enthusiasm from him. You know when someone is > excited to do something and will make the effort to make it happen. > That's > just not happening with Steve. He placates me and will listen when I talk > about moving there, but he doesn't do anything to check it out himself. > So I > have come to the conclusion that he is waiting until I get to the point > where I will give up and resign myself to just staying put. And I am > probably there now. I don't have the energy to realize my dreams without > help. So now I don't even know if I want to move because it would only be > what I want, and he would do it, but there's no matching enthusiasm and I > don't want to do something if he isn't really wanting to do it. I know > the > difference between he and I in sync with plans, and we both make the > effort, > but I don't see that happening with this. > > So the big question, is can I be happy to stay here and fix things so I > have > a comfortable environment, and not be able to have any outside > involvement, > or if we moved would I even be able to regardless? I think he thinks we > would get all moved and I wouldn't feel well enough to go out anyhow, so > if > would be a waste. We've been in this house for 10 yrs, and not one of my > female neighbors have tried to get to know me. After we moved in one said > she was going to come over and welcome us to the neighborhood, but she > never > did. I usually am the one to make the first move whenever we move into a > new > place, but this time I wasn't able to get out by myself. Plus most > everyone > works so I am alone most of the day. > > > > Well this has been a lot to take in, and I'd appreciate any ones thoughts > about it. I'm heading back to bed now, so ttylater friends. > > Hugs, Jackie ____________________________________________________________ Publish your photos in seconds for FREE TRY IM TOOLPACK at http://www.imtoolpack.com/default.aspx?rc=if4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 24, 2011 Report Share Posted September 24, 2011 Jackie I am so sorry you are in so much pain and get little to no relief. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. Would having the dr talk to Steve help any? You could call him when Steve is working and maybe if he told him you needed the things that are in the other town that you don't have at the present he might decide it is a good idea? Hugs nne To the world you might be one person, but to one person you just might be the world " " May the Lord Bless you and keep you, May the Lord Make his face shine upon you, and give you Peace...Forever " Breast Cancer Patients Soul Mates for Life http://breastcancerpatientssoulmatesforlife.bravehost.com/ Anxiety Depression and Breast Cancer http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/AnxietyDepressionandBreastCancer Angel Feather Loomer www.angelfeatherloomer.blogspot.com The Cancer Club www.cancerclub.com > Thinking outloud....... > > Hi everybody, here it is Sat. morning and I'm just about ready to go back > to > bed for a couple more hours before its time to get up for the day. My > meds > are just about ready to kick in, and before I get too rumdummy I wanted > to > check in and run a couple things past you all. > > First I feel so crappy lately all I want to do is sit at my desk, and not > move. Every time I have to get up it hurts so bad, and walking is getting > torturous my legs are having a difficult time wanting to move. I don't > know > if it's a progression or it's because my added weight is causing the > pain? > Steve is convinced it's my weight, and he is wanting me to go on the > medifast diet, which I wouldn't have a problem with, but their food > tastes > really bad. Most of it is soy based and I can't stand soy. Plus with > being > on that low of carbs it wreaks havoc with my bowel functions. I'd have to > take a laxative, but most if not all of them cause cramping, and a > rawness > feeling. I know the diet works, but I am in so much pain as it is, I just > don't know if I can add any other deprivation to my life. It's not that I > eat large amounts of food, and I have to watch my sugar intake so I sub > with > low glycemic sugar products. My Dr. says I should eat MORE because I had > to > make up a menu for 3 months to show her what I ate to try and bring my > blood > sugars down, so she said I wasn't eating enough from what she saw. I'm > just > not that hungry, so I think I can do the medifast IF the food tasted > better. > So that's one thing I am struggling with because I do want to try and > lose > weight, but I can't exercise so I have to do it by diet alone, which I > have > done before but it left me so hungry, and right now I just don't know if > I > have the mental stamina to deprive myself from food that tastes food. So > quantity isn't the problem. It's the quality. > > > > The other thing I am struggling with is moving to Dallas, Oregon. It's > such > a quaint little town with many amenities that would help me possibly feel > better, like their aquatic center with PT warm water therapy. Not too > warm, > but warm enough to loosen my muscles up, and range of motion. Which both > are > pretty bad from lack of any type of land exercises because like I said > above > to move my legs are getting more and more painful I only get up when I > have > to. I actually force myself to get up some of the time because I know I > have > to at least keep moving some. And yes I take pain killers and a muscle > relaxant, but my sensitivities are such that I can't take enough but to > just > take the edge off. If I don't move I can feel less pain, but as soon as I > get up its like I never took anything. I use to be able to handle it, but > I > find it's getting harder and harder to live with minimal relief. My Dr. > and > I have talked about it, but there really isn't anything else I can take > that > I haven't tried and can tolerate. So back to the PT, and water therapy. > My > biggest hurdle there, and this is beginning to become a problem, is my > husband Steve. I am getting the distinct impression that he just does not > want to move anywhere. He is completely satisfied to stay in this house > thru > retirement which will be in a couple years. I just can't seem to impress > upon him how many things I need to help me have a better quality of life. > Yes we can slowly remodel this house and add a few things to make it more > comfy, and handicap friendly. But I guess my dream to move to Dallas and > be > part of a small town with close amenities still lurks in the back of my > mind, and after thinking and dreaming about it for over a year now, I am > not > getting the same level of enthusiasm from him. You know when someone is > excited to do something and will make the effort to make it happen. > That's > just not happening with Steve. He placates me and will listen when I talk > about moving there, but he doesn't do anything to check it out himself. > So I > have come to the conclusion that he is waiting until I get to the point > where I will give up and resign myself to just staying put. And I am > probably there now. I don't have the energy to realize my dreams without > help. So now I don't even know if I want to move because it would only be > what I want, and he would do it, but there's no matching enthusiasm and I > don't want to do something if he isn't really wanting to do it. I know > the > difference between he and I in sync with plans, and we both make the > effort, > but I don't see that happening with this. > > So the big question, is can I be happy to stay here and fix things so I > have > a comfortable environment, and not be able to have any outside > involvement, > or if we moved would I even be able to regardless? I think he thinks we > would get all moved and I wouldn't feel well enough to go out anyhow, so > if > would be a waste. We've been in this house for 10 yrs, and not one of my > female neighbors have tried to get to know me. After we moved in one said > she was going to come over and welcome us to the neighborhood, but she > never > did. I usually am the one to make the first move whenever we move into a > new > place, but this time I wasn't able to get out by myself. Plus most > everyone > works so I am alone most of the day. > > > > Well this has been a lot to take in, and I'd appreciate any ones thoughts > about it. I'm heading back to bed now, so ttylater friends. > > Hugs, Jackie ____________________________________________________________ Publish your photos in seconds for FREE TRY IM TOOLPACK at http://www.imtoolpack.com/default.aspx?rc=if4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 24, 2011 Report Share Posted September 24, 2011 Jackie I am so sorry you are in so much pain and get little to no relief. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. Would having the dr talk to Steve help any? You could call him when Steve is working and maybe if he told him you needed the things that are in the other town that you don't have at the present he might decide it is a good idea? Hugs nne To the world you might be one person, but to one person you just might be the world " " May the Lord Bless you and keep you, May the Lord Make his face shine upon you, and give you Peace...Forever " Breast Cancer Patients Soul Mates for Life http://breastcancerpatientssoulmatesforlife.bravehost.com/ Anxiety Depression and Breast Cancer http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/AnxietyDepressionandBreastCancer Angel Feather Loomer www.angelfeatherloomer.blogspot.com The Cancer Club www.cancerclub.com > Thinking outloud....... > > Hi everybody, here it is Sat. morning and I'm just about ready to go back > to > bed for a couple more hours before its time to get up for the day. My > meds > are just about ready to kick in, and before I get too rumdummy I wanted > to > check in and run a couple things past you all. > > First I feel so crappy lately all I want to do is sit at my desk, and not > move. Every time I have to get up it hurts so bad, and walking is getting > torturous my legs are having a difficult time wanting to move. I don't > know > if it's a progression or it's because my added weight is causing the > pain? > Steve is convinced it's my weight, and he is wanting me to go on the > medifast diet, which I wouldn't have a problem with, but their food > tastes > really bad. Most of it is soy based and I can't stand soy. Plus with > being > on that low of carbs it wreaks havoc with my bowel functions. I'd have to > take a laxative, but most if not all of them cause cramping, and a > rawness > feeling. I know the diet works, but I am in so much pain as it is, I just > don't know if I can add any other deprivation to my life. It's not that I > eat large amounts of food, and I have to watch my sugar intake so I sub > with > low glycemic sugar products. My Dr. says I should eat MORE because I had > to > make up a menu for 3 months to show her what I ate to try and bring my > blood > sugars down, so she said I wasn't eating enough from what she saw. I'm > just > not that hungry, so I think I can do the medifast IF the food tasted > better. > So that's one thing I am struggling with because I do want to try and > lose > weight, but I can't exercise so I have to do it by diet alone, which I > have > done before but it left me so hungry, and right now I just don't know if > I > have the mental stamina to deprive myself from food that tastes food. So > quantity isn't the problem. It's the quality. > > > > The other thing I am struggling with is moving to Dallas, Oregon. It's > such > a quaint little town with many amenities that would help me possibly feel > better, like their aquatic center with PT warm water therapy. Not too > warm, > but warm enough to loosen my muscles up, and range of motion. Which both > are > pretty bad from lack of any type of land exercises because like I said > above > to move my legs are getting more and more painful I only get up when I > have > to. I actually force myself to get up some of the time because I know I > have > to at least keep moving some. And yes I take pain killers and a muscle > relaxant, but my sensitivities are such that I can't take enough but to > just > take the edge off. If I don't move I can feel less pain, but as soon as I > get up its like I never took anything. I use to be able to handle it, but > I > find it's getting harder and harder to live with minimal relief. My Dr. > and > I have talked about it, but there really isn't anything else I can take > that > I haven't tried and can tolerate. So back to the PT, and water therapy. > My > biggest hurdle there, and this is beginning to become a problem, is my > husband Steve. I am getting the distinct impression that he just does not > want to move anywhere. He is completely satisfied to stay in this house > thru > retirement which will be in a couple years. I just can't seem to impress > upon him how many things I need to help me have a better quality of life. > Yes we can slowly remodel this house and add a few things to make it more > comfy, and handicap friendly. But I guess my dream to move to Dallas and > be > part of a small town with close amenities still lurks in the back of my > mind, and after thinking and dreaming about it for over a year now, I am > not > getting the same level of enthusiasm from him. You know when someone is > excited to do something and will make the effort to make it happen. > That's > just not happening with Steve. He placates me and will listen when I talk > about moving there, but he doesn't do anything to check it out himself. > So I > have come to the conclusion that he is waiting until I get to the point > where I will give up and resign myself to just staying put. And I am > probably there now. I don't have the energy to realize my dreams without > help. So now I don't even know if I want to move because it would only be > what I want, and he would do it, but there's no matching enthusiasm and I > don't want to do something if he isn't really wanting to do it. I know > the > difference between he and I in sync with plans, and we both make the > effort, > but I don't see that happening with this. > > So the big question, is can I be happy to stay here and fix things so I > have > a comfortable environment, and not be able to have any outside > involvement, > or if we moved would I even be able to regardless? I think he thinks we > would get all moved and I wouldn't feel well enough to go out anyhow, so > if > would be a waste. We've been in this house for 10 yrs, and not one of my > female neighbors have tried to get to know me. After we moved in one said > she was going to come over and welcome us to the neighborhood, but she > never > did. I usually am the one to make the first move whenever we move into a > new > place, but this time I wasn't able to get out by myself. Plus most > everyone > works so I am alone most of the day. > > > > Well this has been a lot to take in, and I'd appreciate any ones thoughts > about it. I'm heading back to bed now, so ttylater friends. > > Hugs, Jackie ____________________________________________________________ Publish your photos in seconds for FREE TRY IM TOOLPACK at http://www.imtoolpack.com/default.aspx?rc=if4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 24, 2011 Report Share Posted September 24, 2011 Dear Jackie! I wish things were happening the way you want right now!! I do hate to hear you feeling like you are stuck. I wonder if Steve feels like he doesn't have the energy to make this move and do all that would be needed? What do you think?With your insurance can you have home health come in? Sometimes they can help with range of motion and bed exercises. love you! SharonThis email is a natural hand made product. The slight variations in spelling and grammar enhance its individual character and beauty and in no way are to be considered flaws or defects. To: MSersLife Sent: Saturday, September 24, 2011 7:38 AMSubject: Thinking outloud....... Hi everybody, here it is Sat. morning and I’m just about ready to go back to bed for a couple more hours before its time to get up for the day. My meds are just about ready to kick in, and before I get too rumdummy I wanted to check in and run a couple things past you all. First I feel so crappy lately all I want to do is sit at my desk, and not move. Every time I have to get up it hurts so bad, and walking is getting torturous my legs are having a difficult time wanting to move. I don’t know if it’s a progression or it’s because my added weight is causing the pain? Steve is convinced it’s my weight, and he is wanting me to go on the medifast diet, which I wouldn’t have a problem with, but their food tastes really bad. Most of it is soy based and I can’t stand soy. Plus with being on that low of carbs it wreaks havoc with my bowel functions. I’d have to take a laxative, but most if not all of them cause cramping, and a rawness feeling. I know the diet works, but I am in so much pain as it is, I just don’t know if I can add any other deprivation to my life. It’s not that I eat large amounts of food, and I have to watch my sugar intake so I sub with low glycemic sugar products. My Dr. says I should eat MORE because I had to make up a menu for 3 months to show her what I ate to try and bring my blood sugars down, so she said I wasn’t eating enough from what she saw. I’m just not that hungry, so I think I can do the medifast IF the food tasted better. So that’s one thing I am struggling with because I do want to try and lose weight, but I can’t exercise so I have to do it by diet alone, which I have done before but it left me so hungry, and right now I just don’t know if I have the mental stamina to deprive myself from food that tastes food. So quantity isn’t the problem. It’s the quality. The other thing I am struggling with is moving to Dallas, Oregon. It’s such a quaint little town with many amenities that would help me possibly feel better, like their aquatic center with PT warm water therapy. Not too warm, but warm enough to loosen my muscles up, and range of motion. Which both are pretty bad from lack of any type of land exercises because like I said above to move my legs are getting more and more painful I only get up when I have to. I actually force myself to get up some of the time because I know I have to at least keep moving some. And yes I take pain killers and a muscle relaxant, but my sensitivities are such that I can’t take enough but to just take the edge off. If I don’t move I can feel less pain, but as soon as I get up its like I never took anything. I use to be able to handle it, but I find it’s getting harder and harder to live with minimal relief. My Dr. and I have talked about it, but there really isn’t anything else I can take that I haven’t tried and can tolerate. So back to the PT, and water therapy. My biggest hurdle there, and this is beginning to become a problem, is my husband Steve. I am getting the distinct impression that he just does not want to move anywhere. He is completely satisfied to stay in this house thru retirement which will be in a couple years. I just can’t seem to impress upon him how many things I need to help me have a better quality of life. Yes we can slowly remodel this house and add a few things to make it more comfy, and handicap friendly. But I guess my dream to move to Dallas and be part of a small town with close amenities still lurks in the back of my mind, and after thinking and dreaming about it for over a year now, I am not getting the same level of enthusiasm from him. You know when someone is excited to do something and will make the effort to make it happen. That’s just not happening with Steve. He placates me and will listen when I talk about moving there, but he doesn’t do anything to check it out himself. So I have come to the conclusion that he is waiting until I get to the point where I will give up and resign myself to just staying put. And I am probably there now. I don’t have the energy to realize my dreams without help. So now I don’t even know if I want to move because it would only be what I want, and he would do it, but there’s no matching enthusiasm and I don’t want to do something if he isn’t really wanting to do it. I know the difference between he and I in sync with plans, and we both make the effort, but I don’t see that happening with this. So the big question, is can I be happy to stay here and fix things so I have a comfortable environment, and not be able to have any outside involvement, or if we moved would I even be able to regardless? I think he thinks we would get all moved and I wouldn’t feel well enough to go out anyhow, so if would be a waste. We’ve been in this house for 10 yrs, and not one of my female neighbors have tried to get to know me. After we moved in one said she was going to come over and welcome us to the neighborhood, but she never did. I usually am the one to make the first move whenever we move into a new place, but this time I wasn’t able to get out by myself. Plus most everyone works so I am alone most of the day. Well this has been a lot to take in, and I’d appreciate any ones thoughts about it. I’m heading back to bed now, so ttylater friends.Hugs, Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 24, 2011 Report Share Posted September 24, 2011 Dear Jackie! I wish things were happening the way you want right now!! I do hate to hear you feeling like you are stuck. I wonder if Steve feels like he doesn't have the energy to make this move and do all that would be needed? What do you think?With your insurance can you have home health come in? Sometimes they can help with range of motion and bed exercises. love you! SharonThis email is a natural hand made product. The slight variations in spelling and grammar enhance its individual character and beauty and in no way are to be considered flaws or defects. To: MSersLife Sent: Saturday, September 24, 2011 7:38 AMSubject: Thinking outloud....... Hi everybody, here it is Sat. morning and I’m just about ready to go back to bed for a couple more hours before its time to get up for the day. My meds are just about ready to kick in, and before I get too rumdummy I wanted to check in and run a couple things past you all. First I feel so crappy lately all I want to do is sit at my desk, and not move. Every time I have to get up it hurts so bad, and walking is getting torturous my legs are having a difficult time wanting to move. I don’t know if it’s a progression or it’s because my added weight is causing the pain? Steve is convinced it’s my weight, and he is wanting me to go on the medifast diet, which I wouldn’t have a problem with, but their food tastes really bad. Most of it is soy based and I can’t stand soy. Plus with being on that low of carbs it wreaks havoc with my bowel functions. I’d have to take a laxative, but most if not all of them cause cramping, and a rawness feeling. I know the diet works, but I am in so much pain as it is, I just don’t know if I can add any other deprivation to my life. It’s not that I eat large amounts of food, and I have to watch my sugar intake so I sub with low glycemic sugar products. My Dr. says I should eat MORE because I had to make up a menu for 3 months to show her what I ate to try and bring my blood sugars down, so she said I wasn’t eating enough from what she saw. I’m just not that hungry, so I think I can do the medifast IF the food tasted better. So that’s one thing I am struggling with because I do want to try and lose weight, but I can’t exercise so I have to do it by diet alone, which I have done before but it left me so hungry, and right now I just don’t know if I have the mental stamina to deprive myself from food that tastes food. So quantity isn’t the problem. It’s the quality. The other thing I am struggling with is moving to Dallas, Oregon. It’s such a quaint little town with many amenities that would help me possibly feel better, like their aquatic center with PT warm water therapy. Not too warm, but warm enough to loosen my muscles up, and range of motion. Which both are pretty bad from lack of any type of land exercises because like I said above to move my legs are getting more and more painful I only get up when I have to. I actually force myself to get up some of the time because I know I have to at least keep moving some. And yes I take pain killers and a muscle relaxant, but my sensitivities are such that I can’t take enough but to just take the edge off. If I don’t move I can feel less pain, but as soon as I get up its like I never took anything. I use to be able to handle it, but I find it’s getting harder and harder to live with minimal relief. My Dr. and I have talked about it, but there really isn’t anything else I can take that I haven’t tried and can tolerate. So back to the PT, and water therapy. My biggest hurdle there, and this is beginning to become a problem, is my husband Steve. I am getting the distinct impression that he just does not want to move anywhere. He is completely satisfied to stay in this house thru retirement which will be in a couple years. I just can’t seem to impress upon him how many things I need to help me have a better quality of life. Yes we can slowly remodel this house and add a few things to make it more comfy, and handicap friendly. But I guess my dream to move to Dallas and be part of a small town with close amenities still lurks in the back of my mind, and after thinking and dreaming about it for over a year now, I am not getting the same level of enthusiasm from him. You know when someone is excited to do something and will make the effort to make it happen. That’s just not happening with Steve. He placates me and will listen when I talk about moving there, but he doesn’t do anything to check it out himself. So I have come to the conclusion that he is waiting until I get to the point where I will give up and resign myself to just staying put. And I am probably there now. I don’t have the energy to realize my dreams without help. So now I don’t even know if I want to move because it would only be what I want, and he would do it, but there’s no matching enthusiasm and I don’t want to do something if he isn’t really wanting to do it. I know the difference between he and I in sync with plans, and we both make the effort, but I don’t see that happening with this. So the big question, is can I be happy to stay here and fix things so I have a comfortable environment, and not be able to have any outside involvement, or if we moved would I even be able to regardless? I think he thinks we would get all moved and I wouldn’t feel well enough to go out anyhow, so if would be a waste. We’ve been in this house for 10 yrs, and not one of my female neighbors have tried to get to know me. After we moved in one said she was going to come over and welcome us to the neighborhood, but she never did. I usually am the one to make the first move whenever we move into a new place, but this time I wasn’t able to get out by myself. Plus most everyone works so I am alone most of the day. Well this has been a lot to take in, and I’d appreciate any ones thoughts about it. I’m heading back to bed now, so ttylater friends.Hugs, Jackie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 25, 2011 Report Share Posted September 25, 2011 Hi nne,……..read my response to Sharon about what I’ve come to the conclusion about all of this. I do so much appreciate your prayers! I am hoping the town 15 mins from us will build an aquatic center with a warm water therapy pool eventually. I called the city planning commission about it and he said it has been on the back burner to have one, not with a therapy pool, but I told him it would enhance the center and help the senior citizens so they would have a place to go not to mention the hosp. PT patients in another town 15 mins from there. Maybe after the recession things will pick up and building and planning will resume. One can only hope. J and pray! Hugs Jackie Thinking outloud.......> > Hi everybody, here it is Sat. morning and I'm just about ready to go > back to bed for a couple more hours before its time to get up for the > day. My meds are just about ready to kick in, and before I get too > rumdummy I wanted to check in and run a couple things past you all.> > First I feel so crappy lately all I want to do is sit at my desk, and > not move. Every time I have to get up it hurts so bad, and walking is > getting torturous my legs are having a difficult time wanting to move. > I don't know if it's a progression or it's because my added weight is > causing the pain?> Steve is convinced it's my weight, and he is wanting me to go on the > medifast diet, which I wouldn't have a problem with, but their food > tastes really bad. Most of it is soy based and I can't stand soy. Plus > with being on that low of carbs it wreaks havoc with my bowel > functions. I'd have to take a laxative, but most if not all of them > cause cramping, and a rawness feeling. I know the diet works, but I am > in so much pain as it is, I just don't know if I can add any other > deprivation to my life. It's not that I eat large amounts of food, and > I have to watch my sugar intake so I sub with low glycemic sugar > products. My Dr. says I should eat MORE because I had to make up a > menu for 3 months to show her what I ate to try and bring my blood > sugars down, so she said I wasn't eating enough from what she saw. I'm > just not that hungry, so I think I can do the medifast IF the food > tasted better.> So that's one thing I am struggling with because I do want to try and > lose weight, but I can't exercise so I have to do it by diet alone, > which I have done before but it left me so hungry, and right now I > just don't know if I have the mental stamina to deprive myself from > food that tastes food. So quantity isn't the problem. It's the > quality.> > > > The other thing I am struggling with is moving to Dallas, Oregon. It's > such a quaint little town with many amenities that would help me > possibly feel better, like their aquatic center with PT warm water > therapy. Not too warm, but warm enough to loosen my muscles up, and > range of motion. Which both are pretty bad from lack of any type of > land exercises because like I said above to move my legs are getting > more and more painful I only get up when I have to. I actually force > myself to get up some of the time because I know I have to at least > keep moving some. And yes I take pain killers and a muscle relaxant, > but my sensitivities are such that I can't take enough but to just > take the edge off. If I don't move I can feel less pain, but as soon > as I get up its like I never took anything. I use to be able to handle > it, but I find it's getting harder and harder to live with minimal > relief. My Dr.> and> I have talked about it, but there really isn't anything else I can > take that I haven't tried and can tolerate. So back to the PT, and > water therapy.> My> biggest hurdle there, and this is beginning to become a problem, is my > husband Steve. I am getting the distinct impression that he just does > not want to move anywhere. He is completely satisfied to stay in this > house thru retirement which will be in a couple years. I just can't > seem to impress upon him how many things I need to help me have a > better quality of life.> Yes we can slowly remodel this house and add a few things to make it > more comfy, and handicap friendly. But I guess my dream to move to > Dallas and be part of a small town with close amenities still lurks in > the back of my mind, and after thinking and dreaming about it for over > a year now, I am not getting the same level of enthusiasm from him. > You know when someone is excited to do something and will make the > effort to make it happen.> That's> just not happening with Steve. He placates me and will listen when I > talk about moving there, but he doesn't do anything to check it out himself.> So I> have come to the conclusion that he is waiting until I get to the > point where I will give up and resign myself to just staying put. And > I am probably there now. I don't have the energy to realize my dreams > without help. So now I don't even know if I want to move because it > would only be what I want, and he would do it, but there's no matching > enthusiasm and I don't want to do something if he isn't really wanting > to do it. I know the difference between he and I in sync with plans, > and we both make the effort, but I don't see that happening with this.> > So the big question, is can I be happy to stay here and fix things so > I have a comfortable environment, and not be able to have any outside > involvement, or if we moved would I even be able to regardless? I > think he thinks we would get all moved and I wouldn't feel well enough > to go out anyhow, so if would be a waste. We've been in this house for > 10 yrs, and not one of my female neighbors have tried to get to know > me. After we moved in one said she was going to come over and welcome > us to the neighborhood, but she never did. I usually am the one to > make the first move whenever we move into a new place, but this time I > wasn't able to get out by myself. Plus most everyone works so I am > alone most of the day.> > > > Well this has been a lot to take in, and I'd appreciate any ones > thoughts about it. I'm heading back to bed now, so ttylater friends.> > Hugs, Jackie ____________________________________________________________Publish your photos in seconds for FREETRY IM TOOLPACK at http://www.imtoolpack.com/default.aspx?rc=if4 ------------------------------------ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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