Mutant update!

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Saw Mac this morning and the poor man is just horrified at the state

of me and at a loss as to know what to do next. He desperately wants

me to have a full hospital assessment and stated that if Prof can't

get me in soon he will take me in and do the assessments here! I

have spoken with the hospital down in Leeds though and it looks like

I will be getting admitted in around 2 weeks times, so that has

given Mac some reassurance. He has taken me out of my ankle cast as

he feels it is putting far too much strain on my knees, but I am in

splints to support my legs and have to continue using the walking

frames and the wheelchair until my admission in order to reduce the

risk of further falls and damage.

I could have cried for Mac today as we had a good talk about things

and admitted our frustration, fears and desperation to each other -

Mac even having a private word with my Mom while I got my plaster

removed highlighting his concerns for me. He's incredibly worried

about my physical condition but also my emotional well being too,

realising that this whole situation is starting to take it's toll on

me mentally too. Not many OS's would care enough to notice let alone

broach such fears, but then that's Mac all over - he's always cared

enough about me to hurt for me - and I care enough for him to be

upset when he does! he really is a very special person to me now and

I realised today just how special our relationship is with his

extreme worry for me and the way he behaved so differently around me

to everyone else. At one point he even snook up behind me in the

packed waiting room, slipped his arms around me and whispered

something incredibly funny (and unprofessional!) in my ear that had

us both howling with laughter - much to the bemusement and prickling

of the other patients! LOL Typical of my wonderful Mac though and I

just pray ever so hard that I never lose him as my OS or my friend :-

)

I have to confess that it scared me a little realising how urgently

he wants me in hospital though and how desperately frustrated he is

too. I just hope that Prof and the team down there can offer us both

some help and hope in coping with this darned condition and the

effects it is having on both our lives. Mac told me something today

that had tears pricking in my eyes, he said that although he wishes

that he could fix me, regardless of anything else he will always me

there for me, and all I ever had to do was call him. I found that an

incredibly generous and touching act form a big, tough Ortho surgeon

who could very easily wash his hands of me.

So anyway, as I mentioned before I am currently splinted up to the

eyeballs, struggling around with my walkers and wheelchair and also

on strict orders form Mac to stay sat in front of the TV watching

the Olympics until my admission date in order to minimise my injury

risks! I'm following orders so far, I even watched the synchronised

diving from Athens tonight - it was actually really good too!! I

will keep you posted on how I am getting on with my Olympic viewing

marathon and of course my admission dates etc. Thanks for all your

support, advice and thoughts during this rather tough times - I

couldn't get through it without you all.

Thinking of you all and sending lots of warm thoughts and hopes for

good days your way.

Love and hugs....Jo

xxx