Cait and feelings........RE: My Update & a problem

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Never too old for romance! Not laughing either. Steve couldn’t think of one thing romantic to get me for our 40th anniversary, even though we DO have a song. I said couldn’t you have thought of maybe a music box [which I collect], or a CD of romantic songs? Or even set the table with candle light, and a red rose? I think he just thinks of our relationship as him being my caretaker, and companion, but not intimate. Seems like when the sex stopped the romance died. I’m a very romantic person, [Leo], and it really hurt me to think he didn’t care enough to try and make that big of an anniversary special. L I feel myself pulling away so my expectations won’t be anything more from now on. Hugs, Jackie From: MSersLife [mailto:MSersLife ] On Behalf Of xstitcherSent: Monday, August 29, 2011 8:57 PMTo: MSersLife Subject: My Update & a problem .I went over to 's to babysit Bert aka Cruiser, Jr's cocker spaniel so could go golfing in a local tournament. That meant nobody went to court for Jr and he didn't get out )). Most likely he'll get out on bail tomorrow unfortunately. I can't remember when I came home but it was with a kidney infection. So I've been basically drowsing, reading and drinking water water water. It's definitely not cystits but more like pylitis (sp). Anyway that's not my problem. Lately I've done a bit of introspection (me too Jackie) and I realize I'm trying to push away. At the same time, I worry about the future and being alone. I also realize that in some ways I need him and he needs me. And that scares the wits out of me. The feeling needed part I mean which was sadly lacking in my marriage. And unconsciously I have an 'our song' like a goofy teenager. Don't laugh but it's Trisha Yearwood's 'How do I live " . Geesh aren't I too old for these kind of feelings?????