Re: Re: Morphine/Michellle/Lana

June 1, 2004

From: Lana Christensen

Sent: Monday, May 31, 2004 1:11 AM

Subject: RE: Re: Morphine/Michellle

Cindy, I had hoped things had gotten a little better for Dylan....... it IS a

good thing for you to vent and let it all out once

in awhile!....... Please know you

and Dylan continue to be in my prayers! Love Lana 0 :-)

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Thanks Lana.

Geez,... I swore to my self my days of venting here where over. It's like

saying the same ole' thing every time. He hasn't gotten better and I don't see

it happening. I'm losing the fight mode I used to have to find the " Cure " . Life

seems easier to accept it and deal with what we have. Ya know?, Like not

getting so mad, frustraited and sad all the time, by looking for another door to

open. I felt abcessed before. I feel like I have accepted it now. I don't know

which way is right, he's 17 and can't fight for himslf in this state, but I lost

the knowledge where to go from here. There seems to be a since of peace in

accepting what is. More than the fighting. I don't know if that means I gave up,

or if I simply, finally accepted what we have to deal with. Emotions get so

intanged sometimes, they are hard to figure out. I think I'm in a healther state

now in accepting what is. I do worry about the state of mind he is in, he

doesn't ever talk about it. He is very private with his feelings, always has

been.

Thank you for your prayers and thoughts. And for your friendship!

Love, Cindylouwho

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