Update on my Soap Opera - a bit long

June 24, 2004

Hi everyone,

I just don't know how to thank everyone for all the wonderful

encouragements. You all mean more to me than you can imagine.

Today is day 4 since abandonment day, and I'm really doing okay. I'm

past the shock, and starting the sadness, but I can control it. I

set aside specific times to fall apart, then I really fall apart

good. After that I feel cleansed and can be productive. I refuse to

have a flare or go into depression. I also have decided that I want

to be sure and let it all out so I don't have any baggage clogging me

emotionally from this. I want to remain a fully open, loving,

caring, gentle man.

I have noticed that some of my usual lupus/fibro pains are gone. I

wonder what it means if I get well now that Jim has left me? Hmmm!

He came over this morning to spend some time with the dog. We met at

the sidewalk as I was leaving for work. I was amazed at how good and

easy it was for me. We were always really great friends even when we

weren't great partners. I'm glad to see that the friendship may

survive in some form. It's probably really good that we didn't let

the relationship decline, or start fighting and making things ugly.

I'd hate to end a great friendship of 11 years just because we now

want to personally go in different directions.

Golly - am I evolved or what! Ha!

Anyway, we're set to get together and talk about financial stuff and

some other practical things on Sunday. We've only owned the house 6

months, and we still have a year and a half to go before we can sell

it without losing our equity to taxes. I told him that I'm staying

in the house and he's going live elsewhere, and we're both going to

continue to work on fixing it up, and he's going to keep paying his

half of the mortgage. We'll sell in 01/06, and he can have half the

profits. He easily agreed. Like I said...the friendship was always

strong. I figure why ruin ourselves financially just because we

split? And living in San Diego, we could make a killing on it.

That's it for me. I'll fill you all in after I see him Sunday. I'm

off tomorrow and will be with my brother. Have a good weekend

everyone and know that I appreciate each of you.

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