RE: RE: How's everyone today?

[Guest guest]

Hi Mareth,

The book that I am reading is called, Fibromyalgia, a journey toward

healing. It's written by Chanchel Cabrera. I can't tell too much about the

book yet. I have been flipping through it and skimming chapters and getting a

feel for the book. I haven't made into any indepth reading yet.

I am very glad that your family is willing to help you. I know what you

mean about being humbled. I am not making my own income right now either. It's

hard. For the last 15 years I had my own business, my own checking account, and

I did our taxes for myself and my husband. I was pretty much in charge of both

our bank accounts even though he had his own too. We chose to move so that he

could take a higher paying job, but it just barely coveres what I was making,

but it doesn't seem like as much because of the higher cost of living here. I

run tight all the time and never quite make it to the next pay period. He is

grumpy with me and I am grumpy with myself. My mother just received her

disability income so she has been helping make up the shortages. On one hand, I

have helped her out plenty of times, but on the other hand it's hard for me to

take anything from her when she has precious little money. I have been playing

with the idea of trying to get a job, but I just don't want to put my little one

in daycare and I can't leave her with grandma for any length of time because of

my mothers heart condition. I am unsure if I could even handle much of

anything. I can't sit for long and I can't stand in one spot and I have to sit

frequently for a few minutes at a time. You all know the drill. It hurts to

stand, it hurts to sit, it hurts to lie down, and it hurts to move around. It

also hurts to grip anything tight. It hurts to lift anything over 10 pounds.

And then there is the excessive bathroom trips that would make any boss mad. So

I just sit here broke! Oh well. God knows my needs He has always

provided so well for me. It's really all about choices. I AM enjoying having

more freedom in my schedule.

take care

Suzi

[Guest guest]

Hi Mareth,

The book that I am reading is called, Fibromyalgia, a journey toward

healing. It's written by Chanchel Cabrera. I can't tell too much about the

book yet. I have been flipping through it and skimming chapters and getting a

feel for the book. I haven't made into any indepth reading yet.

I am very glad that your family is willing to help you. I know what you

mean about being humbled. I am not making my own income right now either. It's

hard. For the last 15 years I had my own business, my own checking account, and

I did our taxes for myself and my husband. I was pretty much in charge of both

our bank accounts even though he had his own too. We chose to move so that he

could take a higher paying job, but it just barely coveres what I was making,

but it doesn't seem like as much because of the higher cost of living here. I

run tight all the time and never quite make it to the next pay period. He is

grumpy with me and I am grumpy with myself. My mother just received her

disability income so she has been helping make up the shortages. On one hand, I

have helped her out plenty of times, but on the other hand it's hard for me to

take anything from her when she has precious little money. I have been playing

with the idea of trying to get a job, but I just don't want to put my little one

in daycare and I can't leave her with grandma for any length of time because of

my mothers heart condition. I am unsure if I could even handle much of

anything. I can't sit for long and I can't stand in one spot and I have to sit

frequently for a few minutes at a time. You all know the drill. It hurts to

stand, it hurts to sit, it hurts to lie down, and it hurts to move around. It

also hurts to grip anything tight. It hurts to lift anything over 10 pounds.

And then there is the excessive bathroom trips that would make any boss mad. So

I just sit here broke! Oh well. God knows my needs He has always

provided so well for me. It's really all about choices. I AM enjoying having

more freedom in my schedule.

take care

Suzi

[Guest guest]

Suzi posted: <

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Thanks for responding. I am going to see if I can track down a copy of this

book. Please let me know what you think as you get more into the text. Has

anyone else read this book? If so, what did you think?

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I am truly blessed to have their love and support. The funny thing is that

I am totally happy living with my sister, which is something I never would

have imagined. There's a 14 ½ year difference in our ages and she was

always more like a mother-figure to me than a sister. On top of that, we're

very different in terms of politics and religion. But, over the last twenty

months that I've lived with her, we've become so close and discovered that

we do have much in common, despite our differences. So, in spite of

everything bad that's come out of having F

«I know what you mean about being humbled. We chose to move so that

he could take a higher paying job, but it just barely coveres what I was

making, but it doesn't seem like as much because of the higher cost of

living here. I run tight all the time and never quite make it to the next

pay period. He is grumpy with me and I am grumpy with myself.»

I'm very grumpy when money's tight, too. I have always been the type who

wants to pay her own way, even when I was married. Money was always an

issue with my ex-husband. He made decent wages, but worked long hours and

sent $400-500 a month home to México to his elderly parents, so we never had

much extra... Now I'm totally on my own and at the only time since I was

about 15 that I have been unable to work long term.

«I have been playing with the idea of trying to get a job, but I just don't

want to put my little one in daycare and I can't leave her with grandma for

any length of time because of my mothers heart condition. I am unsure if I

could even handle much of anything. I can't sit for long and I can't stand

in one spot and I have to sit frequently for a few minutes at a time.»

I've thought of that and I have come to the conclusion that it's not gonna

happen for me unless something changes. I am pretty much incapacitated at

least 4-5 days a week and I can't predict from day to day how I'll be

feeling the next day (or sometimes the next hour). Scheduling even

part-time work would be a nightmare and I can't imagine any employer being

indulgent enough to allow me to be absent on a regular basis.

«You all know the drill. It hurts to stand, it hurts to sit, it hurts to

lie down, and it hurts to move around. It also hurts to grip anything

tight. It hurts to lift anything over 10 pounds. And then there is the

excessive bathroom trips that would make any boss mad.»

Oh, boy, can I ever relate to that! Luckily, I had a very understanding

boss on my last job. I found out recently that he stood up to his superiors

for me when they wanted to fire me instead of honoring my disability claim.

«I AM enjoying having more freedom in my schedule.»

Me, too, really. I just wish I felt well enough to take advantage of it.

I've been thinking of calling the City Schools here and seeing if I can

volunteer a couple of hours a week to help out in the elementary school near

my home. It would be good for me to get out of the house and I miss working

with the kids-- I'm an el ed major-- but I'm worried about letting them down

if I start something I'm not well enough to finish.

" Let there be beauty and strength, power and compassion, honor and humility,

mirth and reverence within you, "

-Mareth

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