depressed and starting to flare

August 3, 2004

Hi everyone,

My " breakup " has been going on almost 7 weeks now. He's supposed to

move his stuff out on Saturday...the same day I'm starting a

vacation. He was supposed to move this past Sunday, but didn't.

It's been going on so long now that I've become stressed just from

the endlessness of it all.

I got home from work yesterday and had a message from my GP to call

him. He gets copies of my blood work when I go for the rheumy.

Looks like I may be becoming diabetic on top of everything else.

Do you ever feel like life is just beating you up and won't stop till

you're flat on the ground and barely conscious? I just can't seem to

get a break right now. I know things will get better....they can't

really get much worse. I just need it to start happening soon before

I have a physical and emotional breakdown. I mean really!!!

Thanks to you all for your support through all of this.

I go in Thursday to see a neuro about my feet. They hurt so bad now

that I'm walking like enstein. Friday morning very early I have

an MRA of my gut...gotta love all the contrast they shoot in me.

Then I go straight to a 3 hour glucose test. I think I'm really

going to be ready for my vacation on Saturday. I'm flying up the

coast to visit my brother for 3 days. My mom and an aunt will be

there too. I'm really hoping I have some energy by then. Thank God

for therapy tonight.

One foot in front of the other.

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