Update from - SATURDAY, FEBRUARY 21, 2009 11:57 AM, CST

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This is a lot harder than I thought it was going to be. I still have a lot of pain and my head hurts when ever I get up. I think I did too much yesterday. Everything is so overwhelming with the kids, Adam's sick, 's whiney, and I'm recovering. It has only been 18 days so I know that things shouldn't be wonderful yet but I still can't be up much.

Yesterday I was sitting up on the couch for about 2 1/2 hours doing tax stuff and I think that's why I am having so much pain today. In about 1 1/2 weeks I see Dr Brown and hopefully by then I will be off of the percocet.

The truth is I don't feel any better now than I did before surgery and that makes me sad. I did day 2 and 3 after surgery but since the leak and healing from that, things are not better. I so hope that things will fell better soon. Others at this point past surgery are feeling better. I am still in bed a lot and do my stretching and all that. I can not walk much. We got a wheelchair so that we can go out. There is a family event tonight I want to go to. Now if I could just sit up long enough, I don't mind being in the wheelchair.

*sigh* I know things will get better. It's just getting harder becuase it's going to take a while. is getting overwhelmed because he has to take care of the kids, the sick kids, and me and there is no time left for him or our relationship. It is depressing.

Maybe I am sharing too much here but I want others that may go through surgery to understand what it is like for me. It is hard right now, I am not going ot lie, but I KNOW that it is going to get better. Before there was no hope that things would get better. Does that make sense?

My scar is pretty much healed. When you look at it it just looks like 2 bald strips up my hair. That is encouraging. Bye for now.

Oh, PS, I am putting up so more pics today and drew me a picture and on it wrote " I love you so much. You light up my life. " What a sweetheart!

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