Re: Being Grateful

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Ross - Thanks so much for this support. Since I originally wrote this

morning, my husband fell 3 feet onto concrete on the back of his head

and upper back while working on a tractor. I just got home from the

hospital where they have him in ICU to watch him overnight. The CAT

scan showed he does have some breakage on his skull and some bleeding

underneath. But the ER doc thinks we'll just have to watch him, (no

surgery), but are waiting the neurosurgeon's opinion in the morning.

(Oh, I guess it actually is morning, now.)

I came home to take my contacts out and get a little rest before going

back, and I decided to just check it here real quick. I'm so glad

everyone's just a modem away. It makes the house feel not so quiet

right now.

You're right that we are strong. We've dealt with my thyroid problems

and are still together and strong. Now we'll deal with this --

whatever it is. I am very grateful that I'm feeling this much better

now so I can be here for him. Funny how everything turns around so

fast.

Thanks - Debbie

> Your 2 stories are wonderful! I'm starting to notice these things,

> too. I can now wash my hair and not have a breakdown over the amount

> of loss. I can walk up the stairs and not have to sit at the top for

> my heart to stop racing. I can talk to my kids and actually be in

> touch with them. I can make it through a day with out crying.

>

> BUT -- what I am noticing is that I'm not letting myself *really*

> enjoy these things. I take note of them and write them on my symptoms

> spreadsheeet, but I guess I'm too scared to believe they're really

> going to last. I've had soooo many ups and downs the last few years

> -- where I'd feel better and then it would be gone. I think I'm just

> waiting for the other shoe to drop again.