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Dear friends and family,

Here I am again, asking for your prayers. I wish I didn't have to write on such a bad note but I know that you are all so faithful in remembering me in my times of need. You all are always so patient and kind and always pouring out the love that my girls so desperately need. I couldn't ask for any better prayer partners.

My Daughter, 's 24 hour urine came back worse than her doctor thought it would be. It is really creeping up and the doctor is very worried about . She said that the protein is really pouring into her Kidneys fast. She doesn't know what it causing it. She is setting up an appt. to see a Neuporologist. Dr. Gibbas (Kim's Reumotologist) and Dr. Jernigan will both set up an appt. with ish Rite in Atlanta to have a Kidney Biopsy. Dr. Gibbas hopes to find what is wrong with through the biopsy. She has been monitoring Kimmie for a long time but thinks NOW is the time. She said because of having the positive ANA she is looking for Lupus as well. is very Tight in her Joints and Dr. Gibbas is wanting to put on a Arthritis Medication. is on Provigil for Fatigue because her little body is so tired all the time. She is only 12 years old and I really don't want her to go through all of the testing coming up within the month. I will Keep you all posted on her condition as it develops. I know that you will want to follow her condition as well because of your continued Love and support for her.

I know that God will take care of her as he always does. He wouldn't give anymore than she can handle. I love my children so much and I don't want to see them hurt or in pain. As of lately I have been getting up running around trying to get to Doctor appt's and getting the girls ready for school opening on August 2nd that I forget to stop and pray and I guess I feel like I could give God a vacation away from my problems and that I can handle my day alone but by the end of the day, I am on my knees again asking God to give me the strength to handle everything that I face daily. I guess I just forget how Strong God is and how he can turn my problems around. I know he is saying "Gwenna, do you so soon forget how I pull you through and how I can move mountains? I am a Big God and I want you to talk to me and bring me to you". I forget that. I know God will never leave me or forsake me but sometimes I feel like he has. Maybe it's just because of my busy days. I feel like he is far far away from me. I struggle myself with my own disease of Lupus. I am so tired of fighting to stay alive. I am so tired of pills and doctors and hospitals. I am tired of needles and nurses. I always seem to ask myself why is this happening to me? Why is my daughter sick? Why am I having to fight so hard? doesn't deserve what she is going through. She is so in love with the Lord. She is so special and I know God knows how special she really is. She asked me yesterday, "Why Mom?". "Why can't I be normal like my friends?". You know, I couldn't even answer her because I can't even answer that question for myself. I ask the same thing all the time. You know I think the world of in the bible. He is my hero. He seems to be alot like myself. He had a thorn that God wouldn't take away. He begged God to take it from him but he left it there for sufficiency. I don't think no one knew what that thorn was but he did struggle and he fought every day. I guess I think that my Thorn in my flesh would be Lupus.

Thank You again my special heart pictures for your prayers. You are my strength that I feed off of and I know that with all of you, I can make it through.

Sending lots of love and hugs,

Gwenna

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