Need to vent

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I wish I could keep up with all the messages in here. But having a almost 5

months old that is colicky/intelligent and eats every 2 hours doesnt leave

me much time for anything. He needs my attention all the time and gets bored

very easily. Plus he fights taking naps, so I dont get much of a break

there. He already knows how to say mama and can stand on his own with

someone helping him to balance. So I dont see me getting much rest in the

near future.

My Fibro/MPS has been getting worse by the day. I dont sleep well and it is

not because of , he sleeps through the night. I am not getting much

exercise because the weather has been so crappy in WI. Plus my postpartum

depression is hitting me hard again. My doctor now has me on Prozac 40mg and

Trazadone 50mg to 100mg. I am still getting pretty depressed. Sometimes I

just want to curl up in bed and stay there but I cant because of . My

parents live an hour away and all my friends work, so I cant even get

relief that way. It isnt fair. My 19-year-old healthy niece gets a baby

that sleeps all day, and I have to have a baby that needs attention all the

time. She has the energy not me.

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I dont want to be in pain

anymore, I dont want to be tired all the time. I want a normal life. I wish

that wasnt so much to ask for but it really is. For us with Fibro, a normal

life isnt possible and it just isnt fair. None of us did anything bad or

wrong to get this eternal punishment. And no one understands it unless they

have it. No matter how you explain it, people will never know what you are

going through.

I suppose I should stop grumbling now. I have had to stop once in the middle

of this because of as it is.

Thank you for letting me vent. It is easier to say these things to people I

dont know that have Fibro, than to say it to people I do know that dont.

It isnt going to make me physically better but maybe just a little bit

mentally better.

I wish everyone out there has a wonderful summer with very little pain.