Starting to freak out a little

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I think everything is starting to sink in. I just talked to Chris's pre

transplant coordinator a

few minutes ago. She scheduled him for all of his pre transplant work up

evaluations. We'll be

spending ALL day at the hospital Feb 12. She said they're wanting to get him

listed ASAP

because when he was in the hospital last week his MELD score was 18-23 which is

when they

like to transplant their patients. It's all starting to feel so real now and

honestly I am freaking

out a bit. I know he'll be ok. I know they'll take good care of him. He's at one

of the best

transplant centers in the country. I don't worry about those things so much.

What I worry

about is, what to expect when I see him for the first time after the transplant.

What should I

expect? How do I stay calm and keep it together for him even though I'm

terrified on the

inside? Honestly I think he's coping better with all of it than anyone else

around him. He's

just tired of being sick. Anyway, help calm a first time pregnant mama's

anxieties please.