You're not going to believe this.....

[Guest guest]

HI all

So here is my story sorry its going to be long. Last night I began to

feel even worse than normal/ Knew I had a fever 101 degrees, had

horrible bathroom issues....and had this excruciating pain in my

back. I hadnt slept in two nights either. So I wiated and waited ==

took a hot shower, put on icy hot, took about 1,000 advil etc...

finally at 5 am I oculdnt take it anymore. I woke up my husband to

say - honey I am really sick, I think I need to go to the hospital.

So he says " I cant miss work today " Not - are you ok or whats wrong?

The problem is who will watch our 2 yr old. So I say you will have to

call my mom when you get up (nice to know he has no problem sleeping

with all of this) and ask her to watch emily. So....he goes back to

sleep = d0oesnt say goodbye, good luck feel better -= not even an I

love you. He gets mad at me when I get sick becauise it affects his

precious day!!!!

So even better - I get to the ER - at this point my fevver is even

higher, my pulse was 150 and my BP was 144/94. Not good. So they

bring me in quickly thank god. I sat there for two hours before i

even saw a doctor. Then this jerk comes in for literally two minutes.

Presses on my stomach and asks if this has ever happened before. I

try to tell him I have lupus and this is what happens when I get

reaLLY sick = plus I am majorly infection prone due to meds. Never

asked what meds I take!!!!!! Anyway - he leaves and someone takes

some blood, they do a chest xray and leave me hanging for another two

hours. Meanwhile I am in agony, cant lay down b/c of my back, cant

get comfy at all. So finally a nice nurse comes in says - what the

hell are they doing to you - they never even gave you a pillow. All

along I am begging for something for pain and they say we want to get

some test results back before we give you anything. Another hour

passed and finally the nurse brought me two percocet. It took the

edge off but didnt really help. Then they give me a shot for nausea

and a shot for cramping and thats it. Sent me home saying its stomach

flu. I wanst there for the flu. I waS THERE for the pain in my

back!!!!

Throughout all of this - it turns out that my mom said NO she wouldnt

watch so she went to my neighbor (thank god for her) My husband

calls me in the ER to bitch about my mom (I dont blame him for that),

but still never even asks me if I am ok. I hung up. So I finally get

home, thank my neighbor profusely and then falls down the front

steep wooden steps (shes only 2), I swear I thought I was going to

die. Thanks to god, shes ok - just a bit bruised and shaken but now I

am feeling totally horrible - guilty, still in pain and miserable

with anger at my so called family.

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This whole day the phone has not stopped ringing, my mom called left

a msg saying sorry I was so tired I went back to bed , couldnt watch

. Needless to say I did not call back I am too freakin mad. My

husband called about 20 times but I am not picking up teh phone for

anyone, I am too aNGRY ANnd afraid of what I might say.

Oh yeah - when I was in the ER, I called my mom 5 times and she never

once picked up the phone. NIce huh?

So now I sit here, still in pain, still fuming mad thinking I need to

divorce my husband and forget my family ever existed. I cant believe

that the only person to come through for me today was my neighbor who

I have only known for 2 years.

Ok sorry to go on and on I just haD TO tell you guys, knew I would

find soem sympathetic ears and probably soem of you have some similar

stories. Thanks for listening.

meg