TO MEG AND LISA/ DEPRESSED

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, and Meg,

I think we all go through this ......I refer to it as grieving for a lost loved one, "..OUR OLD SELVES" we tend to go through the grieving process as if we have lost a loved one, and in a sense we have.

I will go through all the different aspects....disbelief, anger, pain, depression, and then finally to a sort of Peace .....and in this state we are finally able to survive and go on even though some days are harder than others......You are going to find a few really good days to look back on .

I also find it helpful to remember and cherish the times when I still had the "OLD ME" instead of grieving for them.

I still have days like you describe......just spending the whole day yearning for bedtime when i can sleep and forget .

Re: depressed??

Meg, I'm in the SAME boat as you. I starting going through thisdepression stage lately AGAIN. It's the same saying "Sick and tired ofBEING sick and tired." I just went to a church picnic this last Sat.and I couldn't stay (after 4 hrs.)...I couldn't even go on the boatand have fun on the raft-type pully-things they had. Lacey, mydaughter, had a blast. She kept begging me to go with her and it hurtme so bad to say no. Usually, in my pre-Lupus days, I was the firstone out having fun...now the only fun I have is laying down in mybedroom. This is a horrible disease and I wish that A LOT of thesedoctors would see how it feels THEN (and ONLY THEN) will theyprescribe the meds we need (or give us samples to offset the HIGHcosts of meds). Meg you are not alone...keep writing here and we willget through this together.Blessings,In Cali> Hi everyone> > I havent been online in awhile....been pretty sick and feeling kind > of depressed. Wondering if its depression from the lupus or > depression in general? I am so damn tired all the time I cant stand > it. My doc wanted me to try a med that increases energy (provigil) > but my stupid ins company wont cover it. They will only pay for it if > you have MS or narcolepsy....they dont care that it might help little > old me get through my day.> > anyway....I am tired of being tired all the time. I am losing friends > beacuse ofthis. Recently I met a nice group of moms who get together > for play dates etc... In the beginning they always invited me, now > because I havent been able to make it to many things, I feel like > they are excluding me. I hate this so much, I feel like a teenager > again!!! I just wish for4 a day that I wake up andd feel like getting > out of bed. I dont remember what its like to look forward to the next > day. I look forward to going to bed.> > I am sorry to go on and on and sorry to have disappeared for a few > weeks. Thanks for listening.> > meg"The LUPIES Store" Come check out our store...http://www.cafepress.com/thelupies"The LUPIES Web Page"http://www.itzarion.com/lupusgroup.html"The LUPIES online photo albums!" Check out what your fellow Lupies look like...http://www.picturetrail.com/lupies