TO FRANCIS / FALLING APART

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Francis,

I, too got my disability for Major Depression........and also fell apart at work!.....I know now also it was the Lupus starting to take over......I was the Manager of my Department where I was working as a Graphic Artist ! One of the girls I had trained to do Paste- up noticed I was having a hard time concentrating, and would forget things, it was my job to set up the jobs for the other workers

She decided to suck up to the Bosses wife , (Who was our Receptionist ) and make a play for my Job. ......She also got the other people who worked under me on her side.

I had always believed that doing a good job was more important than sucking up.....and I just noticed the Silent Treatment, and the whispering going on around me, and weird looks I was getting.

Finally, I confronted the Boss man about what was going on......he denied everything and acted like nothing was wrong........Then suddenly he called a Meeting and announced that This other Girl would be in Charge!

I lost it' BIG TIME ! ' AND THREATENED HER LIFE.!.......I then commited myself to the Crises Intervention and Stablization Unit of the County Hospital because I was on the Brink of Suicide, or Murder!

I then applied for Disability, as I knew I would not be able to work again, I was already seeing a psychiatrist who was treating me for Clinical Depression, and seeing a Counselor for Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, stemming from Childhood Sexual Abuse which had started when I was just the tender age of 3 yrs old.

Still it took three years, and two denials, then hiring an attorney with My daughter talking for me, most of the time as I could not keep my mind on anything long enough to engage in an intelligent conversation.

I wasn't diagnosed with Lupus till three years after I got my disbility!!

disability

I think i started long term in 1995 and it was 1997 or 98 before i actually received my disability from social security. The company i worked for provided a company of lawyers that went to ss and anything else i needed. i was given a mental disability [ i fell apart right at work] thrilling scene, it must have been]wish i had known it was lupus at the time but oh well. i sat and cried thru the whole process with the judge did not understand 1 thing i brought a friend so she could tell me what happened if i ever asked and because she could answer any question about me after all we had been fiends 35 years. you never ever get disability 1 st time around rarely 2nd maybe 3rd. stick with it you will recieve benefits just keep going back with doc papers.if any one wants co. name email me and i find it for you.frances aka lilupielu"The LUPIES Store" Come check out our store...http://www.cafepress.com/thelupies"The LUPIES Web Page"http://www.itzarion.com/lupusgroup.html"The LUPIES online photo albums!" Check out what your fellow Lupies look like...http://www.picturetrail.com/lupies

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I remember when I had that panic attack last year. I was suicidal then. It will be a year next month. I'm so scared about October coming because I feel that I will have another panic attack just because that month's coming around again. That was an extremely terrifying time for me. If you've never had a panic attack I wouldn't wish it on anyone. It seemed like you were going through a hard time there. Wow. I'll do my best not to get on your bad side. Just kidding.

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TO FRANCIS / FALLING APART

Francis,

I, too got my disability for Major Depression........and also fell apart at work!.....I know now also it was the Lupus starting to take over......I was the Manager of my Department where I was working as a Graphic Artist ! One of the girls I had trained to do Paste- up noticed I was having a hard time concentrating, and would forget things, it was my job to set up the jobs for the other workers

She decided to suck up to the Bosses wife , (Who was our Receptionist ) and make a play for my Job. ......She also got the other people who worked under me on her side.

I had always believed that doing a good job was more important than sucking up.....and I just noticed the Silent Treatment, and the whispering going on around me, and weird looks I was getting.

Finally, I confronted the Boss man about what was going on......he denied everything and acted like nothing was wrong........Then suddenly he called a Meeting and announced that This other Girl would be in Charge!

I lost it' BIG TIME ! ' AND THREATENED HER LIFE.!.......I then commited myself to the Crises Intervention and Stablization Unit of the County Hospital because I was on the Brink of Suicide, or Murder!

I then applied for Disability, as I knew I would not be able to work again, I was already seeing a psychiatrist who was treating me for Clinical Depression, and seeing a Counselor for Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, stemming from Childhood Sexual Abuse which had started when I was just the tender age of 3 yrs old.

Still it took three years, and two denials, then hiring an attorney with My daughter talking for me, most of the time as I could not keep my mind on anything long enough to engage in an intelligent conversation.

I wasn't diagnosed with Lupus till three years after I got my disbility!!