been awhile..........

[Guest guest]

hello~ i'm finally back. i've been gone for a long time so i will

introduce myself again to all those who may have forgotten or to the

new members. my name is alison and i have

CFS/FMS/arthritis/depression. i live in vermont and now am living

with my parents. i broke up with my fiance about 2 months ago, and

it's been rough lately. i've been very depressed and in and out of

the hospital. i was in about 7 weeks ago with kidney stones that i

was unable to pass and had to have 2 surgeries to blow them up. then

i was in the hospital again last week with a 'virus'. i think that

they weren't sure what was wrong with me so that's what they called

it. i was passing out for no reason and having hot spells and then

chills and other things. each time i was in for 4 days. i hate the

hospital i've started counseling to try and help with the

depression. i've only gone 3 times but i really like my counselor,

so hopefully it'll help. he's trying to help me be strong and not

call or see my ex. i get really lonely at night or sometimes during

the day and break down and call him. i was talking to him everyday

for awhile and even seeing him, so it wasn't a true break-up. i

haven't talked to him since last thursday and it's really hard but

i'm trying. i need support on that i'm so scared that i'll never

find anyone else, even though i'm only 21. i'm going to try and

start school again in the spring, only taking a class or 2. i am

working right now, at a job i love. they're very good to me and

understand when i need to take a nap. well, that's some of what's

been happening i hope everyone is well and happy. talk to you

all soon

luv and hugs

ali