Re: A Lupus poem

[Guest guest]

Thank you for this poem. I really needed it today. Several family

members have turned against me because I cannot get well. They expect

me to do for them like I try to do even while ill, but I am fighting

pericarditis right now for the second time and simply can't. When I

finally broke down and cried out of pain and depression that I had

been holding in for months, one told me I was having a " pity party "

and my own mother told me that I should " buck up " and that I don't

have any problems.

Sigh. I am now adding a tranquilizer to my nighttime bag of pills as

I just don't care to think about it anymore. That is the hardest part

for me. I gave them so much when I was well, and now, due to illness,

I am worthless unless I can still do for them.

Thanks for listening, fellow lupies. You can send me your bills for

your psychiatric services. I can't PAY them.. but you can send them..

lol

Sunny

> LUPUS

> What's it like to live with pain

> Each and every day?

> I eat right and take my meds

> But it never goes away.

>

> Hipaches, headaches, heartaches,

> Back and neck, hands and feet

> Friends have a hard time accepting

> As I'm always dressed so nice and neat.

>

> I used to be a " ball of fire "

> Constantly on the go

> They're tired of hearing my troubles now

> Always a " tale of woe " .

>

> People say " but you look fine "

> (They haven't walked in my shoes)

> Stating " Cheer up and count your blessings "

> When I'm depressed and " sing the blues " .

>

> No one knows what it's like

> Til they've experienced a similar fate.

> Will my lupus ever go into remission?

> Guess all I can do is pray and wait.

>

> I'm tired of worrying

> And of not feeling my best

> I'm anxious over money

> And want to have more zest.

>

> I, who took such good care of so many

> Have no one to care for me,

> But I believe life is meant to be

> Love and joy and tranquility.

>

> I have a love and appreciation of life

> Because adversity came my way

> It made me a stronger person

> And I cherish each and every day.

> ....Carolyn Laskey

>

> Deanna

>

> LUPUS Serenity Prayer

> Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot

> change, the courage to change the things I can, and the

> wisdom to hide the bodies of doctors I shot when they said,

> You're perfectly healthy, it's all in your head "

>

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>

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