New FM/CFS member here

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Hello everyone,

I am new to this site and want to introduce myself and get to know

those already here.

I was diagnosed with FM/CFS first of this year by our MD. I have seen

a rheumie but she didn't think I did. At that time I wasn't in a

flare, and all she admitted was I did have arthristis of knees and

fallen arches, and said it was my wieght causing all this.

I am 38, mother of 3, 1 niece blessed to have too, and have been

married 20 yrs this month. I have been through multiple surgeries in

the past few, due to something rare called allergic fungal sinusitus,

and earlier this year in April I underwent a complete hysterectomy.

I had hope the hyster helped, thinking my hormones had contributed to

my pain, but now I am entering a " flare " and I am terrified.

I think I went into denial when the first and last flare ended

thinking this would not happen again. But I haven't been sleeping the

past few weeks, and have been under alot of pressure with taking a

new child on and having a bipolar son. So yesterday the pain started,

during the day I was tired after only after arising a few hours

early. By night I was in pain. Unable to move about. I feel like I am

changing into stone like before. My fingers ached. The light steps of

our chihuaha stepping over me HURTS! My children's hugs hurt. My

teeth hurt! Now my head feels so heavy on my shoulders like I cannot

hold it up or it will break. My shoulders cannot bear its's weight.

When everyone is understanding, it is still not the same as talking

to you all, when I know you KNOW exactly how I feel physically and

emotionally. The memory is scary. I forget like before and become

scattered. I am sensitive to sound. Every sudden sound bothers me or

loud sounds seem terribly loud? Can you relate to this?

I work full time and pray I can do it. I was off 6 wks with the

hyster and it was with a new optometry practice and they have helpful

and understanding, but I feel guilty not being able to give my all.

Thanks so much for listening and I hope to feel well enough to visit

the board again soon.

kaymac