oh what a night............

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hi~ i just wanted to say hi to everyone. i went out last night with

my cousin and a couple of my friends. i don't know if i told you

guys this yet, i was started to date another guy named casey a couple

of weeks ago..........well it's going really well i got some

upsetting news last night though. my ex, kasey, had been cheating on

me for a year and i never knew it. i suspected it, but i never had

any real proof. it upset me quite a bit. i know that it shouldn't,

i don't want anything to do with him anymore, but it did. i had to

change my cell number at the beginning of the week because he was

calling and harrassing me really bad. i just don't understand why he

can't leave me alone, especially if he's sleeping with someone else.

i'm very happy with my new casey and i don't want anything to come in

between us. i'm not going to tell him that it upset me to find out

that the other had been cheating on me. it just makes me not want to

trust anyone again. he's not the first guy that has cheated on me.

it makes me feel like i'm doing something wrong. am i not good

enough or something? i don't think that i'm an awful person, but i

guess you never know. i want to trust casey in the worst way, and i

really do, but now i'm started to feel that he's going to do the same

thing. i know that he's not like any other guy that i've ever been

with, he's actually really nice he treats me very well, i'm not

used to that other than all of that i had a great time last

night i wish casey would have gone, but oh well. he's going back

to school in a week or so, and that makes me sad. i'm going to miss

him awful. he says that he wants to be with me more than anything,

he's not going to change his mind, but i can't help but worry about

it. i just needed to vent thanks for listening

luv, ali