Guest guest Posted September 11, 2002 Report Share Posted September 11, 2002 Hi Maxine, I know some days are better than others and I just wanted to tell you that there will be better days ahead. Focus on the positive like the fact your computer got well. That's positive because it allowed you to send a message to this board. Best Wishes, Poncho - GA P. S. x-Haughville boy myself PS 52 and Washington HS Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 11, 2002 Report Share Posted September 11, 2002 Maxine, First, I do want to say happy birthday to you - even though the circumstances surrounding this day might seem much greater than just another birthday. My youngest child turned 8 months old today, and, although his birthday is not Sept. 11 (January 11), I just remember this day last year, and I remember thinking, " What have I done? I'm bringing another child into this world to live a life in fear????!!! " But, I am so happy to have him, just as I'm sure your family feels the same about you - regardless of when you were born. Second, yes, this pain and disease is so depressing and hurtful to us and those around us, but I just keep looking to God for the answers. It always seems like He directs me in the way I should go. Third, I will pray for your healing spirit today, and, hopefully, some part of this day will bring you joy - you deserve it - just as all of us do!!! My thoughts are with you, and, again, happy birthday to you!! in KY babygirl1433_00 wrote:hi all, i havent been on for awhile cause my computer has been on the blink. i am so depressed because today is my birthday and i dont feel like celabrating at all because it is the 1 year anniversary of the terror attacks. it seems this pain has been more depressed since it is constant now and my life seems senseless. i know better but the thoughts cant help but cross your mind especially when the pain has destroyed your life with your husband and children and grandchildren and pets, etc. sending good days to all and thinking of you all. maxine in indy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 11, 2002 Report Share Posted September 11, 2002 Maxine, First, I do want to say happy birthday to you - even though the circumstances surrounding this day might seem much greater than just another birthday. My youngest child turned 8 months old today, and, although his birthday is not Sept. 11 (January 11), I just remember this day last year, and I remember thinking, " What have I done? I'm bringing another child into this world to live a life in fear????!!! " But, I am so happy to have him, just as I'm sure your family feels the same about you - regardless of when you were born. Second, yes, this pain and disease is so depressing and hurtful to us and those around us, but I just keep looking to God for the answers. It always seems like He directs me in the way I should go. Third, I will pray for your healing spirit today, and, hopefully, some part of this day will bring you joy - you deserve it - just as all of us do!!! My thoughts are with you, and, again, happy birthday to you!! in KY babygirl1433_00 wrote:hi all, i havent been on for awhile cause my computer has been on the blink. i am so depressed because today is my birthday and i dont feel like celabrating at all because it is the 1 year anniversary of the terror attacks. it seems this pain has been more depressed since it is constant now and my life seems senseless. i know better but the thoughts cant help but cross your mind especially when the pain has destroyed your life with your husband and children and grandchildren and pets, etc. sending good days to all and thinking of you all. maxine in indy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 11, 2002 Report Share Posted September 11, 2002 Maxine, First, I do want to say happy birthday to you - even though the circumstances surrounding this day might seem much greater than just another birthday. My youngest child turned 8 months old today, and, although his birthday is not Sept. 11 (January 11), I just remember this day last year, and I remember thinking, " What have I done? I'm bringing another child into this world to live a life in fear????!!! " But, I am so happy to have him, just as I'm sure your family feels the same about you - regardless of when you were born. Second, yes, this pain and disease is so depressing and hurtful to us and those around us, but I just keep looking to God for the answers. It always seems like He directs me in the way I should go. Third, I will pray for your healing spirit today, and, hopefully, some part of this day will bring you joy - you deserve it - just as all of us do!!! My thoughts are with you, and, again, happy birthday to you!! in KY babygirl1433_00 wrote:hi all, i havent been on for awhile cause my computer has been on the blink. i am so depressed because today is my birthday and i dont feel like celabrating at all because it is the 1 year anniversary of the terror attacks. it seems this pain has been more depressed since it is constant now and my life seems senseless. i know better but the thoughts cant help but cross your mind especially when the pain has destroyed your life with your husband and children and grandchildren and pets, etc. sending good days to all and thinking of you all. maxine in indy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 15, 2002 Report Share Posted September 15, 2002 hi all, i havent been on for awhile cause my computer has been on the > blink. i am so depressed because today is my birthday and i dont > feel like celabrating at all because it is the 1 year anniversary of > the terror attacks. it seems this pain has been more depressed since > it is constant now and my life seems senseless. i know better but the > thoughts cant help but cross your mind especially when the pain has > destroyed your life with your husband and children and grandchildren > and pets, etc. sending good days to all and thinking of you all. > maxine in indy > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 15, 2002 Report Share Posted September 15, 2002 hi all, i havent been on for awhile cause my computer has been on the > blink. i am so depressed because today is my birthday and i dont > feel like celabrating at all because it is the 1 year anniversary of > the terror attacks. it seems this pain has been more depressed since > it is constant now and my life seems senseless. i know better but the > thoughts cant help but cross your mind especially when the pain has > destroyed your life with your husband and children and grandchildren > and pets, etc. sending good days to all and thinking of you all. > maxine in indy > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 15, 2002 Report Share Posted September 15, 2002 hi all, i havent been on for awhile cause my computer has been on the > blink. i am so depressed because today is my birthday and i dont > feel like celabrating at all because it is the 1 year anniversary of > the terror attacks. it seems this pain has been more depressed since > it is constant now and my life seems senseless. i know better but the > thoughts cant help but cross your mind especially when the pain has > destroyed your life with your husband and children and grandchildren > and pets, etc. sending good days to all and thinking of you all. > maxine in indy > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 15, 2002 Report Share Posted September 15, 2002 > Hi Maxine, > I know some days are better than others and I just wanted to tell you that > there will be better days ahead. Focus on the positive like the fact your > computer got well. > That's positive because it allowed you to send a message to this board. > Best Wishes, Poncho - GA > P. S. x-Haughville boy myself PS 52 and Washington HS > > > poncho, thanks so much for the note and reminding me that life isnt all bad. i got thro the day and didnt celebrate but i didnt grieve to much either so i made it thro , sending best wishes, maxine in indy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 16, 2002 Report Share Posted September 16, 2002 Maxine, Glad to hear you made it through your birthday and seem to be in a little better spirits. CP or any chronic illness is so tough to handle. It is difficult to remain upbeat and not let it get the best of you emotionally sometimes. I don't have CP at this time or at least they say I don't. They really aren't sure what I have. I've been told recurring acute attacks caused by sphincter of oddi dysfunction. Hwever, the stent they put in the bile duct really hasn't helped the pain. It has however kept my liver enzymes down to almost normal. Right now it seems the worst part is I am so weak and tired. I can take pain med and nausea med when I need it (thankfully I'm not out yet). However, there is nothing I can take to help the fatigue. I'll get to thinking I really am better and then just doing a load or two of laundry wipes me out and makes the pain and nausea return. I feel so guilty cause sometimes I think maybe I am just being lazy. Maybe if I would just push myself harder I could make it through the day at work. I really don't think I could since an hour long trip to walmart today wiped me out and that was with my hubby driving and bringing in all the groceries. I'm not sure how those of you with chronic do it. I'm not sure if its the pain and nausea that wear me out and cause the terrible fatigue. Maybe it's just my lupus kicking in but this fatigue is different somehow from lupus, even though that can be bad sometimes. Typically with my lupus fatigue one or two good days of just resting and I'm back in the swing. I keep thinking, surely tomorrow I'll be able to function normally, but no such luck yet. I ended up going back on wellbutrin (an anti-depressant). I had been on it in the past but quit taking it in December when I had my gastric bypass. I think these last two months have finally gotten to me and I may be somewhat depressed. I'm very hopeful that I will have some answers and will be better soon but it is so hard to keep the guilt at bay. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 16, 2002 Report Share Posted September 16, 2002 Maxine, Glad to hear you made it through your birthday and seem to be in a little better spirits. CP or any chronic illness is so tough to handle. It is difficult to remain upbeat and not let it get the best of you emotionally sometimes. I don't have CP at this time or at least they say I don't. They really aren't sure what I have. I've been told recurring acute attacks caused by sphincter of oddi dysfunction. Hwever, the stent they put in the bile duct really hasn't helped the pain. It has however kept my liver enzymes down to almost normal. Right now it seems the worst part is I am so weak and tired. I can take pain med and nausea med when I need it (thankfully I'm not out yet). However, there is nothing I can take to help the fatigue. I'll get to thinking I really am better and then just doing a load or two of laundry wipes me out and makes the pain and nausea return. I feel so guilty cause sometimes I think maybe I am just being lazy. Maybe if I would just push myself harder I could make it through the day at work. I really don't think I could since an hour long trip to walmart today wiped me out and that was with my hubby driving and bringing in all the groceries. I'm not sure how those of you with chronic do it. I'm not sure if its the pain and nausea that wear me out and cause the terrible fatigue. Maybe it's just my lupus kicking in but this fatigue is different somehow from lupus, even though that can be bad sometimes. Typically with my lupus fatigue one or two good days of just resting and I'm back in the swing. I keep thinking, surely tomorrow I'll be able to function normally, but no such luck yet. I ended up going back on wellbutrin (an anti-depressant). I had been on it in the past but quit taking it in December when I had my gastric bypass. I think these last two months have finally gotten to me and I may be somewhat depressed. I'm very hopeful that I will have some answers and will be better soon but it is so hard to keep the guilt at bay. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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