Re: Long but Sincere!

[Guest guest]

Dear Margie,

My heart goes out to you right now! And you most certainly are in my

prayers!!!! I'm so sorry that your insurance has been denied!! Remember,

God is still in the miracle business!!!!

I hate to read your words that you are ashamed and that you feel

worthless. It is the world that tries to make you feel that way. Remember

your Father in heaven. He loves you so much!!! Did you realize that He

made you just to have the pleasure of knowing you? He loves you just the

way you are.

What's more, anyone who is worth being your friend will also love you

just the way you are...not for what they want you to be or for what they can

try to make you be!!!!

Please feel free to email me if you need to just have someone who

listens and who cares!!!

Carol K.

Pre MGB

email: tbearkelly@...

>From: MCypher31@...

>Reply-To: MiniGastricBypass (AT) e

>To: MiniGastricBypass (AT) e

>Subject: Re: Long but Sincere!

>Date: Sat, 3 Jun 2000 15:19:12 EDT

>

>HI My Dear Friends,

>

>This is long, but, very needed. I am Margie Vickers from South Carolina. I

>am

>5'3 " and I am currantly 230#. I just need to talk to you all. i started

>about

>Jan seaching on the internet for Bariatric Surgery. I became aware of this

>surgery about 2 years ago when I lived in MI and they had in the newspaper

>about this seminar for anyone overweight. Well needless to say, call it

>shy,

>low self esteem, or embarrassment, I didn't make it to the seminar. Didn't

>want to go alone, and didn't know anyone in MI, I had just moved to MI and

>therefore didn't know anyone and wasn't about to go it alone. About 2 mo.

>later I found out I was moving to south Carolina ( my husband was

>transferred

>again). It was then I decided to see if I could gain some info on the

>internet about this seminar. I was too embarrassed to go anywhere. I

>searched, filled out a form and the next thing I knew I was in the

>association for Morbid Obesity on the puter! I guess thats how I started...

>I

>filled out another form and Whalaa, I was a member of the onelist!! All I

>can tell you is I am 41 yrs. old and have never in my life had support ,

>friends, or anyone that understood what I felt. Talk about being in a

>closet??? well I have Never Ever been " normal " , so I can't say I am

>overweight due to childbirth (yes I have 1 son 19 yrs. old) or anything

>else

>cause I have always been heavy, I can remember all the " chubby " girls had

>the

>same dresses as me in grade school! Sears was the ONL:Y store for chubbies

>then! Anyways, I have always felt like I was being made fun of. To this day

>I

>have no friends to speak of (Part of that is due to moving alot) But you

>know, If you have 1 good friend in a lifetime, My mom said to count

>yourself

>lucky. So, when I came upon this group I was so amazed at the support,

>love,

>understanding and the power of prayer!!! Oh my GOD!!! I could feel it so

>strong!!! Whew!!! I really and truly couldn't believe there were other

>people

>like me!! I honestly thought I was the only person in the world who was

>lonely, dpresses, ashamed, low self esteem, and in pain physically,

>mentally

>and MORALLY!! I say morally because the way we are treated in society is

>brutal!! Isn't it a shame that this debilitating, horrific disease is made

>to make us look like dirty, lazy slobs that cant control our food???? And

>yet to obtain any kind of financial help for this is next to impossible. So

>for all of you wonderful, loving caring understanding and absolutly

>beautiful friends on this list that have obtained help from your ins. co.

>God

>really and truly has blessed you! I have seen so many of you go from start

>to

>the other side! I have laughed so hard , cried so hard, and I have felt

>your

>feelings deep inside my soul. I never felt like I belonged anywhere as much

>as I do here. I wouldn't even speak these words to anyone else I know in

>the

>world! I have prayed so hard every day and night since I found you all,

>and

>I have seen Gods power work right here before my eyes! AMEN!! What a

>feeling!

> I completed my patient information form and sent it in on May 3rd or

>somewhere close to that. The good Dr. sent the usual to my ins. co. I then

>moved ( same area) and was busy for a few weeks. The reason I didn't send

>my

>form in earlier was because I needed to find a pcp and that is hard, when

>you

>move alot. 1st try and it worked, although I do not feel comfortable with

>this Dr. But I did get an ok, he just was in a hurry and said ok?? So I am

>in

>the proccess of obtaining a new Dr. in fact I have an apt. with her on Mon.

>I

>just will feel better if I can find a Doc that I feel I can relate to. If

>she agrees I will hang on her shirttail till she writes the Dr. letter and

>believe me I will sit on her if needed!! In the meantime after I sent in my

>Patient Info form, I contracted a trojan virus on my PUTER!!!!! OHHHH It

>was

>awful!! I had no puter till now!!! Aren't you glad??? It really was hard to

>go every day and not be able to talk to all of you! I Lost all my info!!!

>I

>am just now able to get on!! So Now I forget where I left off!!1 I know

>alot

>of people were going on over to the other side!!! trish, a, sandy, Who

>else help me refresh my memory?? How is everyone??? I mean All of you? I

>care!! I have missed all of you! I have just received in the mail the

>letter

>that the ins. co. sends out to let you know if you are approved and I was

>not

>excited in fact I didn't want to open it, because I knew my policy had an

>exclusion, but I figured I was prepared, and I opened it, and I was

>refused.

>Well I was really prepared!!! I cried, and cried, and cried and I still cry

>.

>I can not seem to stop! I am not sure if and when I coulkd self pay. I have

>been so patient and up until this point, I feel uncontrollable!! I need to

>get my control back.I think this is the most degrading disease in the

>world!

>I will regain control and all, but at this moment I feel like a 2 yr. old!

>I

>am so ashamed! I am asking for that powerful prayer I've seen on here, to

>touch me and help me. I feel lost and so alone. I need to overcome this

>hopeless feeling of failure and I need the strength to go and fight for my

>life. I need strength to pick myself back up and get together. Please pray

>for me it seems so dark right now. I thank God for bringing all of you

>into

>my life. I felt so empty for so long. It seems soooo long. Thank you so

>much

>for listening and being here for me. I love you all and pray for everyone !

>You mean The World to me. I pray for our Victory to come. To all of you my

>friends I love you! sincerely, Margie Vickers......... and I

>willlllllllll

>make it over to the other side!!!!!! *HUGS*

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