desperate

[Guest guest]

hello, i am new to this group and am in need of some major support. i

have very, very severe rosacea. i am 25 years old. i had severe acne

until i took accutane also.

the rosacea has flared up again this week. the pain is so incredible

i want to die. i have not eaten in 3 days because it is to painful to

open my mouth. i can not sleep. i cry and cry and cry. today i

finally threw up.

last night my mother drove me to the ER. the pain was and is still so

intense i can not stand it. they gave me vicatin which does not help.

i can not even see straight. my eyes are half closed because they

hurt so bad, my skin turns a cold washcloth burning warm in a second.

i am severely red.

i can not bare to go outside forr fear of the sun. 5 minutes in it

is torture. i don't want to go even to the grocery store to get food

because i look so disgusting and i hurt so very bad.

i am also in a wheelchair due to another disease. even that doesn't

compare with the agony rosacea is causing me.

i got into my derm atologist for tomorow, an emergency call. i use

metrocream.

i had to sleep over my parents house last night because i wanted to

kill myself. the pain is that bad. i am very very serious when i say

it is that painful.

i am going to quit my job. will laser surgery cure this, take the

pain away and the ugly redness???

i am in need of just some support. i am hurting so bad it is

cruel.......

Angie