Today

[Guest guest]

Well guys,

sorry I've been off for the weekend, but we were moving

furniture around and when we were done, my mother

monopolized my computer. Well, I almost completely broke

down at work today. Didn't realize how emotionally fragile

I am.

I had give an revised policy and procedure to a coworker to

review. When I read it, I realized she had the old version,

not the modified version. She practically yelled at me for

giving her the wrong one and then said she doesn't

appreciate wasting her time, but she would review it, this

once. Then when she told me that she and another co worker

has scheduled a meeting with them and me (without consulting

me to see if I was available)to discuss the policy and

procedure, I had to tell her I couldn't go because I had two

doctors appt. tomorrow. She got mad and told me, in a very

mean and nasty voice that I should make the appointment

instead. Then she slammed the phone down. After the call I

just started crying. I couldn't help it. She made me feel

that I couldn't do anything right for her.

My office partner (I share an office with another person at

work), came in when I was crying and of course wanted to

know why. She went back to the cowork who had started it and

said she'd upset me. That cowork came to me and said she

wasn't mean, she was annoyed and that she hoped I recognized

the difference and that I should " think about that " .

Personally, I still think the phone call was mean and nasty,

regardless of whether she was just annoyed and not angry.

But it also brought home to me how emotionally fragile I am.

Little things will just start to make me cry. They don't

last long, but it's not fun, to say the least.

So, I've made an appointment with a pyschologist who deals

with chronic pain patients for next week. Hopefully taalking

to him will help. It's not my regular psychologist since

he's on vacation until December and I need to talk to

someone NOW.

I'm hoping the psychologist will have better suggestions on

how to deal with this because currently, every time I think

of it, I start to try.

Kimber

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Kimber

Vallejo, CA

hominid2@...

Southwest and California Representative

Pancreatitis Association, International