Re: a long one

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Cheri,

I'm sorry you've been feeling so bad lately and have been crying.

How lucky those people are to have you in their life and to take care

of things. Remember to always take care of yourself too though! I

know it seems as if there isn't enough time in the day for that but

you have to do it. I'm learning the hard way. I'm like you always

doing for everyone and then one day I couldn't do it anymore.

Emotionally I was drained. People started taking advantage of me.

They say people come in your life for a reason, a season, or a

lifetime. I've had a lot of those " reason " people in my life since

coming to Hawaii. To teach me to take care of me first, then my

family and everyone else after that.

I hope you are feeling better soon and the crying subsides. Maybe

next time Christian is in preschool you can go get a pedicure or if

money and time allows, I FULLY RECOMMEND a facial! One time I almost

cried during it because I was so relaxed and peaceful. It was

wonderful!

Take care and lots of love,

Christy

> Hi Christy and everyone,

> Wow........more parents who feels these feelings! It is so good to

have

> cyberfriends isn't it? And funny, I seem to be the Mom that wants

to do the

> fun stuff......the school field trips, the Halloween parties for all

> 's friends, great birthday parties, play dates, be on

committees at

> school for fundraisers, help out my mom or dad with something, sew

my

> sister's daughter a new duvet cover and curtains..........should I

go

> on?????!!!!!....okay, make dinner for a friend who has cancer, a

friend who

> had a new baby (a healthy baby), take a meal to someone who lost a

loved

> one, watch someone's kids after school because they are shopping,

etc. etc.

>

> I guess I am just feeling really down lately.........I have been

crying too.

> It has been a long time since I have cried so much. I remember I

used to go

> and take out of his crib and hold him for a long time at

night and

> rock him and just sob. He is a sound sleeper and never even woke

up. I

> joined the old Cystic-l after my husband bought me a computer and

that

> really helped. But then it was hard because it seemed like there

were so

> many friends dying.......it was so hard to read these messages. I

know it

> happens.....it even happens to other kids, bike accidents, cancer,

etc. I

> guess they don't have to live with the thought that this 'might'

happen to

> their kids. Maybe that is the stressful part for me?

>

> And Christy, I can relate about the toilet problems. That is

another who

> ball park......delegating giving medication to someone else. Now

> takes care of his pills at lunch at school. We've had problems

with them

> changing the lunch menu and then he takes the pills I put in the

cup anyway,

> which are too many....or they have french fries and he eats them

all and did

> not get enough pills. It is horrendous, the worry I feel, hoping

that

> 'everything' comes out allright.

>

> And I think that the jealousy thing is a real issue. Christian was

a really

> terrible 2yo.....and I think that he really thought that I was

giving more

> attention to because of my need to attend to the

medications and

> vest etc. so often. When he had surgery for nasal polyps and a

Picc line

> last summer, it was really hard managing that. I used to have more

time to

> read to while doing his vest or watch a movie with him, but

now it

> seems I am always busy with dinner or something.

>

> I do get some Me time playing wallyball at the Ymca, which is fun a

couple

> of times a week. And Christian has preschool now 2 mornings, so

there is

> some time to grocery shop or walk the Walmart aisles in peace!

Let's all

> hang in there together! I am so glad to be here to share important

> information and our feelings like this. Thank you to you all.

> Cheri B., Mom to 8yo invitro baby wcf & Christian 3yo

adopted nocf

> both Gifts from Heaven!

>

>

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