MONIQUE

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I breastfeed Eilish until she was two. I loved it and was so sad to

stop it. My Liam was like a monster feeding. But Eilish feed the

minute she was born and was so good. However she also feed only 5-10

minutes but every 2 hours. What we had to do was increase her enzymes

by 1/2 (which made 1 whole one) and then she could last for 4 hours,

which was bliss.

Enjoy it .

(Australia)

Liam 8 wocf & Eilish 5wcf

Liam Feeding/ thanks

aaaaaaaaa blisssss I have just had the most relaxing breastfeed with

Liam, it went so well, couldnt believe it. We had a deep bath together

and he started feeding in the bath, of course there was no enzymes in

site so couldnt just zap off to get them. I just thought at least he is

feeding well. All was going beautifully when he did this HUGE shit in

the bath, ewww yuck!!! We had very yellow water. I quickly emptyed the

bath and turned the shower on and we had a shower together. What an

experience bathing in runny yellow baby POO. Wraped him up and we went

to lay on the bed to finish his feed. Well he went on to both breasts

again for a about 15 mins. It was so so nice to feel that conection

with him and not be stressed about is he getting enough and whats wrong

with him/me/my milk. etc.......

I feed him to sleep and now I am happy tonight and so is he I think.

Thanks for all your support in this hard but wonderful journey of being

a mother, I am really enjoying the fact that this time I got to keep my

baby and I can feel like a real mother this time. It was so hard to

have immense joy and sorow blended into one massive wirlwind.

Having Liam to hold everyday reminds me that I am so blessed to have

this precious angel, to be his gardian till he is old enough to fend for

him self. I love being a mum, someimes I wish my Lily was still here

and that I could have mothered her too but in a way I am glad she is in

heaven and doesnt have to feel pain and be sick and live in a fallen

world where life isnt perfect and sometimes not fair.

Alas we dont really know the bigger picture, there is a reason for

everything, even what we deem bad or unfair.

Hope you guys dont mind me going on sometimes its nice to share and get

things out.

mum to baby Liam nearly 16 weeks and Lily Madison died

at only 8 days old in our arms as we took turns holding her for the last

12 hours of her life.