contacting my doc / Postive affirmation / Visualizations / Diane

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In a message dated 10/31/2002 3:09:10 US Eastern Standard Time,

dhollis062@... writes:

> >>>. The docs say its the virus hanging on from my sickness earlier this

> month... My fear??? That the weekend will arrive and things will not be

> improved and unable to contact my doc....In order for me to get care from

> my doc, I will have to wait until Monday to get care from my doc. .DianeTN

> State Rep <<<

Hi Diane,

I am sorry so sorry to hear about these problems. I know you are grateful

that you live in Nashville and have access to a conglomerate of health care

resources. I want to tell you how much I understand your fear about being on

a day or weekend when your physician isn't available. I turned in a request

for my monthly medication refills last week (When my doctor was in the

office) They were not done and this week my doctor is on vacation. Most of

these are mail order medications. They are my pain management medications.

Finally the nurse called and said they were ready. When I arrived, they had

written scripts for the list I didn't need. (Every month I write a summary

letter for my doctor so she knows what is going on, the results of my

journals, food diary, my functional status as it relates to my disability.)

So, it is of course after 5pm and I have no scripts. I told them to have

another doctor write the scripts. To my horror they refused. They said I

needed to go to a pain management doctor. I told them those were their

recommendations. AAAGHH!!!

Well, in an effort to stay focused in the positive, I took some deep

breathes, meditated, did some reflexology to my hand to get my back to quit

hurting. I was doing well. I would be willing to do whatever I had to do to

wait until my doctor returned from vacation.

Later when I returned home I called Tull. I was proud because I wasn't having

a pity party, I refused to play the victim. I discussed my feeling and fears

I had during that experience. I really felt like a slave to the narcotics.

It isn't so much that I wanted the medication to take, I had a fear of being

in intractable pain and having to go deal with the emergency room.

I told Tull I was glad to have a new program of healing and was looking

forward to seeing Dr. Mercola. But I was having trouble staying focused in

the moment. Tull in a moment of clarity said " Well, it looks like the

universe is talking to you. It heard your desire for alternative healing, and

now has given you this opportunity " The power of positive belief is an

integral component of my new program.

So, it will be interesting. I am not completely out of my pain medication,

but I definitely am not able to continue my protocol.

Please pray, meditate, or visualize or use any other tool that is in your

vocabulary and believe that I will not experience any pain more than I can

effectively manage with alternative techniques.

Here is a start. When you read this, read it out loud. You deserve everything

you hear yourself say.

I believe that clearing my body of drugs will clear my mind and senses.

I see myself thinking clearly, being alert, participating in the world around

me.

I see my body well nourished and hydrated.

I see with focused vision.

I feel calm, comfortable, and restful.

I am at peace with myself and the people in my life.

I am part of the harmonious whole.

I am that person God intended me to be.

I can connect to that part of myself that has a memory to return to wellness.

I am able and willing to go to a new level of healing.

Every person that touches my life is highly evolved on a healing pathway.

I affirm health.

I affirm well being.

I am open to the divine light.

My body has all it needs to heal and be free of pain.

I release all shame, blame, guilt, anger, sadness, and fear.

I declare for myself and each and every person in my life in my life; peace,

joy, security, harmony, love for the self, and the willingness to love

others.

All is well in my world.

All is well in your world.

Thanks.

Karyn , RN

Founder / Executive Director

http://www.pancassociation.org

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