Re: depressed to

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> I'm so depressed I guess I need to vent. Went to pain

managemnet the first time Thursday, gave me new meds and

they make me feel like crap. I'm so sick of feeling this way, of

cheating my husband out of a semi-normal wife and of having a

life. Does it ever get better? What do you do when you want to

give up? thanks for

> letting me vent.

> P

,

We all have those days, I'll bet every one of us does, that we feel

like giving up. I know I have, and I've heard so many others say

the same. Living in pain that can't be controlled and having our

lives changed to the point that we no longer feel like

ourselves.....because so much is based on how we feel

physically, and that can change at any given moment can be

depressing.

It's hard on our relationships with our loved ones, too. When we

are in pain and depressed at our inability to " get over it " , that

frustration seeps out and stains our loved ones, and people get

snippy. It happened between my husband and me just this

week, he got snippy and made a remark that he knew would hurt

me. He has always been fully supportive and caring about my

condition. My usual reaction would have been to snap a dig right

back, but this time I didn't because I felt like you are right now, I

felt like giving up. He apologized later, and I realized his earlier

remark was really an unconscious reaction to the way I have had

to change with this illness. There are many things I cannot do

that I did before, and much of this affects him, too.

So what I do when I start feeling that way is try to do only the

things I can do, that I like to do, that bring me some pleasure. I

do this for a while and put all the other stuff on the back burner. I

have many hobbies that bring me peace and pleasure that I save

for times like these, and this seems to work to bring me out of

my fugue. Because I know, really, that giving up won't solve

anything.

I hope this helps. I wanted you to know that you aren't alone with

this.

With hope and prayers,

Heidi

Heidi H. Griffeth

South Carolina

hhessgriffeth@...

Southeastern Regional Representative

Pancreatitis Association, Intl.

http://www.pancassociation.org/storieshome.html#Heidi