EMERGENCY

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Hello Everyone, I am not a new kid on the block. I have E-mailed some of

you. My name is . Please allow me to tell you a little about myself.

I am 49 years old and have been overweight 45 of those years. I am presently

325 pounds and I stand at 5ft 3in. I am also more miserable than I have ever

been in my life. I could not sleep one night (of many) and I ran upon this

site. I was mesmerized. I could not believe that this is actually a

reality. I have been hopeless for so many years I can't even count them. I

am still mesmerized. I read all of the letters and the profiles and I cry

because there are people like me who understands what it means to be fat and

not to be fit for society. (Please bear with me because I am longwinded). I

cry because there is a chance that I won't have to feel so bad anymore.

I immediately acted on this opportunity. I filled out the form and got

everything in motion. I received a letter from the Dr (Rutledge) about my

insurance. I didn't know that it was going to be so fast. I waited and I

couldn't wait to hear from the insurance carrier. I nervously called the

insurance company a few days later and had to call back a couple of other

times. Gladly, I was approved!!! I cried like a baby. But the only thing I

had not seen my doctor, or DR Rutledge yet. The insurance person needed a

surgery date ASAP. My appointment with Dr Rutledge is not until June 13th.

That was May 11 when I was approved.

Now, I am beginning to panic. In the back of my mind I feel the insurance is

going to change their mind because I didn't get back to them in a timely

manner. I am so afraid and I need those that believe in prayer to please

pray for me.

I was told in January that if I didn't lose weight I would not live to see

another year. I just cant miss out on this opportunity. It is a matter of

life or death fore me. I have sent out I don't know how many e-mails to

people to see if they would be my contacts. I have heard from no one. I

don't understand. I have to get that packet ready and I don't have all of my

contacts. Please forgive me. I am just overwhelmed right now and I get this

terrible feeling that I am going to die fat and I just can hardly bear it.

Some of the people responded and for that I am grateful.

The testing and everything is going so slow. I'm still not sure if I have

everything done that I need. I had a Pap-smear, and will have a mammogram

Friday. Do I need a chest x-ray and an upper GI? Will someone please help

me? I am just so afraid right now. Please forgive me, because I am use to

hiding how I feel, but I don't have to do that with you all. I need you

help. I know this was a long entry, thanks for listening.......I love you

guys. Please e-mail me. Thanks in advance for your help.

Beamon

Trying to make a change

E-mail address (BeamonBritnet@...)