I have a confession to make.............

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Hi Friends,

I've been sitting here at my computer all evening long. I'm in so

much pain I can't stand it! All I've done is sit here & cry...its a

good thing that all of your posts have made me keep my mind off of my

pain. I honestly do think that the nausea is almost worse then the

pain itself is. I hate these attacks we all have! I haven't been

able to eat anything since yesterday. I have diahhrea (someday I

just might teach myself how to spell that word!) and my back pain is

the worse its been in a long time! Now, I always have pain in the

front on the right side, I'm never completly pain-free. I wish I

could say I was, but thats the honest-to-goodness truth, pain every

day of my life. BUT I don't have the pain that shoots to my back all

the time. This is how I know I'm having a bad attack. I've taken an

extra dose of my stadol NS, and I've used a phenergan suppos. and I

think I may be feeling a bit better now. I'm getting sleepy, so I

hope this means the drugs are working. I'm going to go try to go to

bed. Its 2:30am, and I have to get back up in 3 hours. boo hoo boo

hoo boo hoo boo hoo boo hoo boo hoo boo hoo. I get so depressed when

I'm in this much pain! I have to call the home care nurse tomorrow,

because she needs to do my monthly flushs.............of my port, of

course.....what was you thinking? Sorry, off track again. I'm going

to try to sleep for a few hours. I'll check in later.....bye friends!

Lots of Hugs,