3.5 year anniversary I should be happy right?

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Well the day is finally here only half a year away from 4. I should

be happy right since I am no longer morbidly obese just a little

over weight thanks to that damn fistula. Some days I have no pain

or dumping then there are the days that make me wish I never had the

surgery in the first place. I have to make it until the summer

because I need to get a job with benefits for the spring. I am

trying to obtain insurance on my own until I get it through my new

job which I won't start until after finals are over.

I am divided and transected why does this have to happen to me? I

am tired of being the unlucky 1%! The emotional and physical pain

I went through to try and repair it with out major surgery was not

worth it since it got my hopes up and then didn't work. That really

sucks! Anyway as you can tell I am pretty angry right now and

feeling really down since today was a reminder of what I did to

myself 3.5 years ago. I am tired of all the problems I have had

because of the RNY but I guess that's nothing compared to being

morbidly obese except I was healthy but six months away from

becoming diabetic and contemplating sucicide.

I am not looking forward to the holidays at all since all that mixed

up food makes me sick even turkey makes me have pain so that's all

the holidays revolve around food which really sucks! Sorry to ruin

everyone's day. I have usually been postive about all that's going

on. This is just one of those days I was talking about when I need

support because my future with the upcomming surgery is looking very

bleak. It's major surgery and not going to be easy gee I can't

wait.

Kristy

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In a message dated 11/21/02 3:35:23 PM Central Standard Time,

krissy77klw@... writes:

<< I am pretty angry right now and feeling really down since today was a

reminder of what I did to myself 3.5 years ago. I am tired of all the

problems I have had because of the RNY but I guess that's nothing compared

to being morbidly obese except I was healthy but six months away from

becoming diabetic and contemplating sucicide. >>

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Kristy,

I hear your anger, and I have a lot of my own but for opposite reasons: my

surgery hasn't done much to help me lose weight. I've lost, but had to work

at it as hard if not harder than I ever did as a pre-op. Like you, before

RNY, I woke up every day wondering if this would be the one that I'd finally

get up the nerve to off myself.

Do you still feel that way? If not, then the surgery has saved your life. And

if you truly regret that you had it, you do have the option of having it

reversed. I don't really know anything about fistulas, but maybe a revision

to another type of WLS is an option? I know how difficult the holidays can

be. Here's hoping you find good ways to cope with the stress, and that you

continue to find the strength to do what you need to do to be healthy. You

have shown great courage up till now; I'm sure you will draw on your reserves

to make it thru whatever you need to do.

Carol A