Body Dysmorphia

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I found out today just how I see, or don't see, my body/size since WLS. I

am in the process of re-decorating my house, and I went with my decorator to

pick colors. She was standing in front of me and I thought to myself

" sheesh, I would love it if I were as small as her " . About 1/2 hour into

our appointment, she squatted down to get some samples and I noticed the

size tag on her slacks....don't get me wrong, I don't make it a habit to be

watching other's butts lol, I was SHOCKED! She wears 2 sizes larger than I

wear.

What is it going to take???? If I am not going to start " enjoying " the FACT

that I am thin, why the heck did I have WLS???? I wear size 6/8 and,

logically, I KNOW a person cannot be big and wear this size. I think it is

time for me to force my head to catch up to my body, I am 2.5 yrs post-op!

An awakening!

KJ

RNY May 2000

TT June 2001

Mastoplexy Dec 2002

-130 lbs @ goal

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In a message dated 11/22/02 12:21:25 AM Eastern Standard Time, klm403@...

writes:

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> I found out today just how I see, or don't see, my body/size since WLS. I

> am in the process of re-decorating my house, and I went with my decorator

> to

> pick colors. She was standing in front of me and I thought to myself

> " sheesh, I would love it if I were as small as her " . About 1/2 hour into

> our appointment, she squatted down to get some samples and I noticed the

> size tag on her slacks....don't get me wrong, I don't make it a habit to be

> watching other's butts lol, I was SHOCKED! She wears 2 sizes larger than I

> wear.

>

> What is it going to take???? If I am not going to start " enjoying " the

> FACT

> that I am thin, why the heck did I have WLS???? I wear size 6/8 and,

> logically, I KNOW a person cannot be big and wear this size. I think it is

> time for me to force my head to catch up to my body, I am 2.5 yrs post-op!

>

> An awakening!

>

> KJ

> RNY May 2000

> TT June 2001

> Mastoplexy Dec 2002

> -130 lbs @ goal

The truth is it will take time... much more time than you think. I still

struggle around it and I am celebrating 3 years post op today. This morning

I went to put on a pair of pants that looked way to small to fit... altho

logically I knew they did because I just wore them 2 weeks ago; but I was

convinced somehow they shrunk or I got bigger. That's ridiculous, isn't it.

But over time I notice less and less of that happening so I guess my head

size and real size are starting to come together.

se

Baltimore, MD

Open RNY 11/22/99, Dr. Sweet, Reading, PA

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11/22/99 324, BMI 51

12/6/99 301, BMI 47

1/27/00 280, BMI 44

2/22/00 270, BMI 42

3/16/00 262, BMI 41

5/31/00 244, BMI 38 (no longer extremely obese... just plain obese)

7/22/00 224, BMI 35

9/23/00 220, BMI 34 (and still obese)

10/16/00 216, BMI 34

11/7/00 210, BMI 33 (65 pounds from goal!!!)

5/8/01 196, BMI 31 (new goal 157; I am 5'7 " that would give me a BMI

of 24.6; 39 pounds to go)

9/13/01 196, BMI 31 (Stuck!)

1/24/02 190, BMI 29.7 (slightly overweight!! have lost 80.2% of my

excess weight)

4/2/02 200, ARGH! Very frightening moment. Hopefully I can lose back

down to 190 quickly!

4/28/02 201 (started a starch-free, 4 hours a week of exercise

program...weighed in at the gym)

9/22/02 Tummy Tuck, Thigh Lift, and Lower Back Lift, Dr. Shermack, s

Hopkins, Bayview,

Baltimore, MD -- 12 pounds of skin removed!!

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Hi.

My name is Barb B.

starting wt. 321, now 140.

Sizes 4/6 & some 8's.

I have the same problem--seeing myself as I REALLY am now.

At the gym yesterday, I was lifting weights. There was a beautiful girl

exercising next to me. She told me how fantastic I look and

asked me how many years have I been working out? (probably because I am

almost 52 and she is in her 30's).

In the dressing room, there was a lady in there who commented to ME--that I

must have great " genes " because....she has to " really work at toning and

being thin " --whereby, I must just come by it " naturally. "

Interesting comments.

But, they all made my day....

All these pounds later, I often feel like an obese woman--acting as a 'fraud'

in a thin body.

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> In a message dated 11/22/02 12:21:25 AM Eastern Standard Time,

> klm403@...

> writes:

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> >

> >

> >

> >I found out today just how I see, or don't see, my body/size since WLS. I

> >am in the process of re-decorating my house, and I went with my decorator

> >to

> >pick colors. She was standing in front of me and I thought to myself

> > " sheesh, I would love it if I were as small as her " . About 1/2 hour into

> >our appointment, she squatted down to get some samples and I noticed the

> >size tag on her slacks....don't get me wrong, I don't make it a habit to

> be

> >watching other's butts lol, I was SHOCKED! She wears 2 sizes larger than

> I

> >wear.

> >

> >What is it going to take???? If I am not going to start " enjoying " the

> >FACT

> >that I am thin, why the heck did I have WLS???? I wear size 6/8 and,

> >logically, I KNOW a person cannot be big and wear this size. I think it

> is

> >time for me to force my head to catch up to my body, I am 2.5 yrs post-op!

> >

> >An awakening!

> >

> >KJ

> >RNY May 2000

> >TT June 2001

> >Mastoplexy Dec 2002

> >-130 lbs @ goal

>

>

> The truth is it will take time... much more time than you think. I still

> struggle around it and I am celebrating 3 years post op today. This

> morning

> I went to put on a pair of pants that looked way to small to fit... altho

> logically I knew they did because I just wore them 2 weeks ago; but I was

> convinced somehow they shrunk or I got bigger. That's ridiculous, isn't

> it.

> But over time I notice less and less of that happening so I guess my head

> size and real size are starting to come together.

>

>

>

> se

> Baltimore, MD

> Open RNY 11/22/99, Dr. Sweet, Reading, PA

>

Barb B.

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In a message dated 11/21/2002 9:21:04 PM Pacific Standard Time,

klm403@... writes:

> I wear size 6/8 and, logically, I KNOW a person cannot be big and wear this

> size. I think it is time for me to force my head to catch up to my body, I

> am 2.5 yrs post-op!

>

Same thing here - although I'm at an 8/10. I was trying on dresses this

week, and admiring how svelte I looked. Then I took the dress off, looked in

the mirror, and saw my size 24 body. I just figure my life will be full of

surprises

Kate

[Guest guest]

> I have the same problem--seeing myself as I REALLY am now.

I don't have trouble seeing myself as I am now, most of the time, but what's

funny is finding out that other people didn't see me as big as I was, when I was

huge.

We were watching a story about a woman who had bypass surgery last night on TV

(Evening Magazine in Seattle). My dh says " wow, she's a lot bigger than you

were, " and then they tell us she's starting at 358. I started at 415. So I guess

HE never saw the " real me. " I notice now that he thinks I'm thinner than I am,

too. Odd....

I do still get surprised sometimes at fitting through small spaces where I don't

think I will fit. I have a pretty good idea about my body shape & size.

There's a great little website out there called " Your Virtual Model, " (don't

have URL with me at work), where you put in your height, weight, other features,

and it makes a 3-D image of you. I made one of myself, and asked the family if

they thought it was right. They all said yes. I think she (my virtual self)

looks thinner than I think I look, but the virtual model doesn't allow for

things like batwings and panni, which I have.

~~ Lyn G

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So I'm not the only one who still regularly experiences that moment of panic

several mornings a week when I'm just CERTAIN that my pants are going to be

entirely TOO SMALL?

I'll be two years out on Dec 7th and have been about this same weight since

January. Woo-hoo - the same winter clothes two years in a row!

Amy Towery

> The truth is it will take time... much more time than you think. I still

> struggle around it and I am celebrating 3 years post op today. This morning

> I went to put on a pair of pants that looked way to small to fit... altho

> logically I knew they did because I just wore them 2 weeks ago; but I was

> convinced somehow they shrunk or I got bigger. .

se

> Baltimore, MD

> Open RNY 11/22/99, Dr. Sweet, Reading, PA

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> 11/22/99 324, BMI 51

> 12/6/99 301, BMI 47

> 1/27/00 280, BMI 44

> 2/22/00 270, BMI 42

> 3/16/00 262, BMI 41

> 5/31/00 244, BMI 38 (no longer extremely obese... just plain obese)

> 7/22/00 224, BMI 35

> 9/23/00 220, BMI 34 (and still obese)

> 10/16/00 216, BMI 34

> 11/7/00 210, BMI 33 (65 pounds from goal!!!)

> 5/8/01 196, BMI 31 (new goal 157; I am 5'7 " that would give me a BMI

> of 24.6; 39 pounds to go)

> 9/13/01 196, BMI 31 (Stuck!)

> 1/24/02 190, BMI 29.7 (slightly overweight!! have lost 80.2% of my

> excess weight)

> 4/2/02 200, ARGH! Very frightening moment. Hopefully I can lose back

> down to 190 quickly!

> 4/28/02 201 (started a starch-free, 4 hours a week of exercise

> program...weighed in at the gym)

> 9/22/02 Tummy Tuck, Thigh Lift, and Lower Back Lift, Dr. Shermack, s

> Hopkins, Bayview,

> Baltimore, MD -- 12 pounds of skin removed!!

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