Guest guest Posted November 22, 2002 Report Share Posted November 22, 2002 Oh dear apple fritters, tortilla chips, chocolate and pecan sandies cookies, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Oops! I have my dieties mixed up again. (so help me God, I am NOT prosletyzing, praise the lord, hallelujah!) (been dieing to use the p word ever since one of the guys did a few weeks ago!)) We haven't even left on our vacation yet and hasbeen is already bugging the heck out of me! That's what happens when he waits until the LAST 30 MINUTES TO PACK!!!!! I need to borrow some Mr. Percoset (aka Mr. Perky) to slip into hasbeen's coffee. I said the serenity prayer because I really need to keep my head on straight. I reached my holiday goal of 235 pounds and I worked very, very HAAARD (pain, sweat, deprivation, pitiful, pitiful me) to earn it. I made it into size 18 just 2 days ago. I have my new pink dress and some new black velvet pants which go with a gorgeous green chinese satin blouse (remember Kidman's asparagus green chinese get- up).. I have new black strappy suede sandals with (hold on to your diapies) Heels! I am going to dress up on the cruise and I am going to look as great as I possibly can. Now I know that when I work this hard and get gussied up, I am going to expect hasbeen to ooh and aah and give me my 'reward " . I also know that he is not only incapable of complimenting me, but that there is a 30% chance he will say something negative and an 80% chance of him acting disapproving for a prolonged period of time throughout the evning, if in fact we are together at all. The trick is for me to not be dependent on anothers confirmation of my worth. I can't place demands on him to do something he cannot or will not do. That only leads to my own disappointment, and the ensuing pity pot and depression is brought about by my own unreasonable expectations. The mature person (which I am not yet, and I fully admit it) finds rewards in the achievement itself, not the recognition of others. Self recognition is the builing block of self esteem and confidence. And with these, I am not dependent on the opinion of others because I am content within myself and grounded. Now, I " know " these things, but actually doing them is another matter. How many times have we seen people who crave outside attention and acknowledgement so badly that they end up flirting or straying to others? (luckily, in a way, even if I were mentally in that state, the fact that my entire body falls about 3 feet when I take off my clothes provides me with a little extra insurance!!) So now that I've voiced this out, I will go on vacation, enjoy my kids, revel in horseback riding while trying not to pity poor horsey too much, enjoy the feel of my muscles when I kayak, and the wonderful weightlessness and fluidity of my body when I snorkel. I will thank my lucky stars for everything I have, for how far I've come, and for the opportunity to continue living each day to its fullest to the best of my ability. And maybe, just maybe, I will do a little self affirmation....stand in front of the mirror and in a silky, sultry voice exclaim, " Why dahling, you look mahvelous!!Where, oh where did you find that fahbulous dress? You are so dazzling, I just can't take my eyes off you. No, no..let me cover my eyes, your beauty is simply too blinding me!! " LOL hehehe After that, I will head off to the dance floor and try to shake my booty without falling off my shoes! " See " you next week folks. Smiles, Vicki Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 22, 2002 Report Share Posted November 22, 2002 Freudian slip...I meant deities, not dieties!!! Vicki A. > Oh dear apple fritters, tortilla chips, chocolate and pecan sandies > cookies, > > Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, > the courage to change the things I can, > and the wisdom to know the difference. > > Oops! I have my dieties mixed up again. > > (so help me God, I am NOT prosletyzing, praise the lord, hallelujah!) > > (been dieing to use the p word ever since one of the guys did a few > weeks ago!)) > > We haven't even left on our vacation yet and hasbeen is already > bugging the heck out of me! That's what happens when he waits until > the LAST 30 MINUTES TO PACK!!!!! I need to borrow some Mr. Percoset > (aka Mr. Perky) to slip into hasbeen's coffee. > > I said the serenity prayer because I really need to keep my head on > straight. > > I reached my holiday goal of 235 pounds and I worked very, very > HAAARD (pain, sweat, deprivation, pitiful, pitiful me) to earn it. > > I made it into size 18 just 2 days ago. I have my new pink dress and > some new black velvet pants which go with a gorgeous green chinese > satin blouse (remember Kidman's asparagus green chinese get- > up).. I have new black strappy suede sandals with (hold on to your > diapies) Heels! I am going to dress up on the cruise and I am going > to look as great as I possibly can. > > Now I know that when I work this hard and get gussied up, I am going > to expect hasbeen to ooh and aah and give me my 'reward " . I also > know that he is not only incapable of complimenting me, but that > there is a 30% chance he will say something negative and an 80% > chance of him acting disapproving for a prolonged period of time > throughout the evning, if in fact we are together at all. > > The trick is for me to not be dependent on anothers confirmation of > my worth. I can't place demands on him to do something he cannot or > will not do. That only leads to my own disappointment, and the > ensuing pity pot and depression is brought about by my own > unreasonable expectations. > > The mature person (which I am not yet, and I fully admit it) finds > rewards in the achievement itself, not the recognition of others. > Self recognition is the builing block of self esteem and confidence. > And with these, I am not dependent on the opinion of others because I > am content within myself and grounded. > > Now, I " know " these things, but actually doing them is another matter. > > How many times have we seen people who crave outside attention and > acknowledgement so badly that they end up flirting or straying to > others? (luckily, in a way, even if I were mentally in that state, > the fact that my entire body falls about 3 feet when I take off my > clothes provides me with a little extra insurance!!) > > So now that I've voiced this out, I will go on vacation, enjoy my > kids, revel in horseback riding while trying not to pity poor horsey > too much, enjoy the feel of my muscles when I kayak, and the > wonderful weightlessness and fluidity of my body when I snorkel. I > will thank my lucky stars for everything I have, for how far I've > come, and for the opportunity to continue living each day to its > fullest to the best of my ability. > > And maybe, just maybe, I will do a little self affirmation....stand > in front of the mirror and in a silky, sultry voice exclaim, " Why > dahling, you look mahvelous!!Where, oh where did you find that > fahbulous dress? You are so dazzling, I just can't take my eyes off > you. No, no..let me cover my eyes, your beauty is simply too > blinding me!! " LOL hehehe After that, I will head off to the dance > floor and try to shake my booty without falling off my shoes! > > " See " you next week folks. > > Smiles, > > Vicki Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 22, 2002 Report Share Posted November 22, 2002 Vicki! Have a fabulous time! I can just picture you in those pants and Chinese blouse. I wanna go get me an outfit like that. I wish I could wear heels. I am 5'10 " tall, and I have always felt self-concious in heels, but I really do love them. Bobbie Manchester, WA (across the bay from Downtown Seattle) Serenity > Oh dear apple fritters, tortilla chips, chocolate and pecan sandies > cookies, > > Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, > the courage to change the things I can, > and the wisdom to know the difference. > > Oops! I have my dieties mixed up again. > > (so help me God, I am NOT prosletyzing, praise the lord, hallelujah!) > > (been dieing to use the p word ever since one of the guys did a few > weeks ago!)) > > We haven't even left on our vacation yet and hasbeen is already > bugging the heck out of me! That's what happens when he waits until > the LAST 30 MINUTES TO PACK!!!!! I need to borrow some Mr. Percoset > (aka Mr. Perky) to slip into hasbeen's coffee. > > I said the serenity prayer because I really need to keep my head on > straight. > > I reached my holiday goal of 235 pounds and I worked very, very > HAAARD (pain, sweat, deprivation, pitiful, pitiful me) to earn it. > > I made it into size 18 just 2 days ago. I have my new pink dress and > some new black velvet pants which go with a gorgeous green chinese > satin blouse (remember Kidman's asparagus green chinese get- > up).. I have new black strappy suede sandals with (hold on to your > diapies) Heels! I am going to dress up on the cruise and I am going > to look as great as I possibly can. > > Now I know that when I work this hard and get gussied up, I am going > to expect hasbeen to ooh and aah and give me my 'reward " . I also > know that he is not only incapable of complimenting me, but that > there is a 30% chance he will say something negative and an 80% > chance of him acting disapproving for a prolonged period of time > throughout the evning, if in fact we are together at all. > > The trick is for me to not be dependent on anothers confirmation of > my worth. I can't place demands on him to do something he cannot or > will not do. That only leads to my own disappointment, and the > ensuing pity pot and depression is brought about by my own > unreasonable expectations. > > The mature person (which I am not yet, and I fully admit it) finds > rewards in the achievement itself, not the recognition of others. > Self recognition is the builing block of self esteem and confidence. > And with these, I am not dependent on the opinion of others because I > am content within myself and grounded. > > Now, I " know " these things, but actually doing them is another matter. > > How many times have we seen people who crave outside attention and > acknowledgement so badly that they end up flirting or straying to > others? (luckily, in a way, even if I were mentally in that state, > the fact that my entire body falls about 3 feet when I take off my > clothes provides me with a little extra insurance!!) > > So now that I've voiced this out, I will go on vacation, enjoy my > kids, revel in horseback riding while trying not to pity poor horsey > too much, enjoy the feel of my muscles when I kayak, and the > wonderful weightlessness and fluidity of my body when I snorkel. I > will thank my lucky stars for everything I have, for how far I've > come, and for the opportunity to continue living each day to its > fullest to the best of my ability. > > And maybe, just maybe, I will do a little self affirmation....stand > in front of the mirror and in a silky, sultry voice exclaim, " Why > dahling, you look mahvelous!!Where, oh where did you find that > fahbulous dress? You are so dazzling, I just can't take my eyes off > you. No, no..let me cover my eyes, your beauty is simply too > blinding me!! " LOL hehehe After that, I will head off to the dance > floor and try to shake my booty without falling off my shoes! > > " See " you next week folks. > > Smiles, > > Vicki > > > Homepage: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Graduate-OSSG > > Unsubscribe: mailto:Graduate-OSSG-unsubscribe > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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