I really don't regret the wls I am just afraid!

[Guest guest]

No, I don't truely regret the surgery I wouldn't be here today if I

didn't have it done. It just easier for me when I am having a rough

day or time to blame someone or something. Since the day was an

anniversary date it was easy to think about all that has gone wrong

with the wls. I am trying so hard to focus on what's going on in my

life that's good. All my life I have always seemed to focus on the

bad and I have lost many friends over it. Then I got to the point

that when people would try to get close to me I would push them away

by being so negative and depressed. It worked for me at the time

then I came to a realization that I did need others to help me and I

do need friends. I was just always convinced it was my weight that

kept people away but now I know that wasn't the real reason. I do

have a few friends that could always see beyond the weight and loved

me for me. I would always push them away because I thought how could

you possibly like or love me. I was this shy, sweet, depressed,

determined, young lady who cares about others more than herself.

When I lost all my weight I was so afraid the friends that could see

past the weight wouldn't like the new me because I was convinved I

would change more than just my appearance. I have changed but I

really haven't changed my personality just my attitude and I am

trying so hard to learn how to love myself just as I am. I am still

working hard on allowing myself to make new friends and establish

realationships. It's a learning process and its not been easy I

still have many fears that I am still working on in counseling.

It's been really painful at times but I am so strong and detemined

that I will finally get over all of my fears and issues.

Kristy ---

In Graduate-OSSG@y..., tuesdynite@a... wrote:

> In a message dated 11/21/02 3:35:23 PM Central Standard Time,

> krissy77klw@y... writes:

>

> << I am pretty angry right now and feeling really down since

today was a

> reminder of what I did to myself 3.5 years ago. I am tired of

all the

> problems I have had because of the RNY but I guess that's nothing

compared

> to being morbidly obese except I was healthy but six months away

from

> becoming diabetic and contemplating sucicide. >>

> -----------------------------

>

> Kristy,

> I hear your anger, and I have a lot of my own but for opposite

reasons: my

> surgery hasn't done much to help me lose weight. I've lost, but

had to work

> at it as hard if not harder than I ever did as a pre-op. Like you,

before

> RNY, I woke up every day wondering if this would be the one that

I'd finally

> get up the nerve to off myself.

>

> Do you still feel that way? If not, then the surgery has saved

your life. And

> if you truly regret that you had it, you do have the option of

having it

> reversed. I don't really know anything about fistulas, but maybe a

revision

> to another type of WLS is an option? I know how difficult the

holidays can

> be. Here's hoping you find good ways to cope with the stress, and

that you

> continue to find the strength to do what you need to do to be

healthy. You

> have shown great courage up till now; I'm sure you will draw on

your reserves

> to make it thru whatever you need to do.

>

> Carol A

[Guest guest]

Kristy, Trust is so hard. I do understand to a certain point. I wish you

well. I have to say that I think you have the right attitude. You are

addressing your fears and TRYING to do something about them. Instead of

sitting back and doing nothing but crying " poor, poor me " . Some times I

think....that fear is a catalyst (at times) it can cause you to make

REAL changes. At least you are heading in the RIGHT direction!

Debbie in Gig Harbor

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