Dreading people's reactions to weight loss . . .

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NAW, I think Barbie would be a zero if human . . . I am a Gap size 6

in their non stretch " Long and Lean " denim jeans . . . AND I AM NO

BARBIE . . .I still don't have much waist even at a size 6! If I had

waist I'd be a 2 . . . not complaining or hoping even, for once I am

satisfied. I am what I am <.> I remember when I used to read of

others being a 6 and I couldn't even imagine it until 8's fell off

me. I even wear some 3's, but I know they are a fluke . . .

) Vicki

> I th ink that's Barbie's size. 6 very long legged.

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> > > weight loss

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> > > > Dear Estela,

> > > > I smile sweetly and thank the person giving me the

> > > compliment... even

> > > if

> > > > it doesnt always seem like a compliment.. I think people mean

well

> > > most of

> > > > the time, but sometimes dont think how what they are saying

sounds

> > > to the

> > > > other party. Hang in there... and just say thank you to those

> > > people.

> > > > Hugs,

> > > >

> > > > from GA

> > > > open RNY 12/12/00

> > > > Revision 04/18/01

> > > > Revision 02/07/02

> > > > St wt.... 392

> > > > Cw.......187

> > > > Wt loss..-205

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YUP....it's a real size.....the size of my left thigh :0 the other is an

8......makes a 14!!!!!!! P.

Re: Re: Dreading people's reactions to

> > weight loss

> > . . .

> >

> >

> > > Dear Estela,

> > > I smile sweetly and thank the person giving me the

> > compliment... even

> > if

> > > it doesnt always seem like a compliment.. I think people mean well

> > most of

> > > the time, but sometimes dont think how what they are saying sounds

> > to the

> > > other party. Hang in there... and just say thank you to those

> > people.

> > > Hugs,

> > >

> > > from GA

> > > open RNY 12/12/00

> > > Revision 04/18/01

> > > Revision 02/07/02

> > > St wt.... 392

> > > Cw.......187

> > > Wt loss..-205

>

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Go for it, I'm a size 3, 34 inseam.

OK......I think I am gonna have to officially hate you guys

Ok, you know I'm just teasen right?? See the little smiley face at the

end.......

Re: Dreading people's reactions to weight loss . .

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> Go for it, I'm a size 3, 34 inseam and bought the bewbies and wish

> I'd done it years before. I love the " girls " , as I call them.

> hugs,

> Ramoth

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> > In a message dated 12/21/2002 4:05:23 PM Eastern Standard Time,

> vitalady@v... writes:

> >

> > > I th ink that's Barbie's size. 6 very long legged.

> >

> > Ummm... call me Barbie then.. LOL. Size 4 to 6, long bird legs....

> of course, Barbie's got boobs.... I gotta find a PS who takes

> payments and buy them LOL

> >

> > B

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I've learned to be gracious about this subject. But when do I actually

convince myself I'm not a fraud...and actually do wear a size 6? I look in

the mirror, and see what I see...but the little MO voice inside is still

saying... " what a fraud, what a fraud...you know you still wear a 32...and you

are just fooling everyone... " I know this sounds affected and

superficial...but it's true...when do I finally settle into really feeling my

" real? " size? Is this really my REAL size? I know in my head I am and will

always be an MO woman in remission...does this feeling of being a fraud go

along with it? I KNOW I'm not using smoke and mirrors...but somehow it feels

that way. I zip right into the clothes...??!?? What's this all about...

Anyone else relate to this? (Going on 3 years of this foolishness!)

Regards~

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((¸¸.·´ ..·´ -:¦:- Jacque

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Jacque.....I can TOTALLY relate to this!! I mean.....like I felt as though

I wrote it!! I had a friend tell me one time that her husband thought I was

an attractive " sexy " woman. While I smiled on the outside all that was

going thru my mind was that I was really a size 24W fraud.....I felt as

though I was just buying my time in this " new " body and it is just a matter

of time before everyone finds out the truth......yup....it is weird, that's

for sure..... P.

Re: Dreading people's reactions to weight loss . .

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I've learned to be gracious about this subject. But when do I actually

convince myself I'm not a fraud...and actually do wear a size 6? I look in

the mirror, and see what I see...but the little MO voice inside is still

saying... " what a fraud, what a fraud...you know you still wear a 32...and

you

are just fooling everyone... " I know this sounds affected and

superficial...but it's true...when do I finally settle into really feeling

my

" real? " size? Is this really my REAL size? I know in my head I am and will

always be an MO woman in remission...does this feeling of being a fraud go

along with it? I KNOW I'm not using smoke and mirrors...but somehow it feels

that way. I zip right into the clothes...??!?? What's this all about...

Anyone else relate to this? (Going on 3 years of this foolishness!)

Regards~

´¨¨)) -:¦:-

¸.·´ .·´¨¨))

((¸¸.·´ ..·´ -:¦:- Jacque

-:¦:- ((¸¸.·´*

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Jacque,

That's interesting that you look at it that way. When I wore sizes 24-26, I

felt like I was trapped inside this giant suit. I hid as much as I possibly

could being that I didn't want people to see me in that hideous costume. My

frame of mind was denial that I could actually be that big.

Don't get me wrong. It did take some getting used to, being a smaller

person. I just feel like this is the real me.

Fraud. No way. You earned your size 6 and don't ever doubt it!

Dawn

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My rational brain knows all this...and my physical eyes see it. It's just

the emotional brain that hasn't quite accepted it yet. Even when I was huge,

I saw myself as bigger than I was. The mirror has always held surprises for

me...and it may have a lot to do with my childhood conditioning. From the

age of 8 onward, I had a mother convincing me I was " BIG " and " FAT " ...I have

pictures of myself at those ages, and I wasn't...but I was convinced.

Another factor could be that in the past, when I would lose weight, I always

gained it back plus, as most of us have. So maybe in my head, " it is only a

matter of time...so don't get used to this " ....kind of mentality?!? I, even

as a kid, learned to look at gifts from my parents with dread...because there

were always strings attached to them. Nothing ever truly " belonged " to me.

So, maybe a little delving into this, and the whys, will help me realize that

this is just a dynamic of a very lousy childhood, and the defense system that

I have set up has outlived its usefulness. I've been thinking a lot about

this lately, as you can tell...so thinking that 1.) I'm REALLY am a big, fat

person...(erroneous info!) I'm average height, and small to medium boned.

2.) So I've lost the weight..it will just come back...(erroneous) as the tool

I have and the fear of regain is great, and will keep me straight. 3.) All

gifts will be taken back if I don't do someone's bidding...(erroneous) I have

a wonderful husband, and both parents are gone. Maybe I will be able to

accept this yet, with a little work, and correct thinking. Thanks for

helping.

Regards~

Jacque

Jacque,

>

>

> That's interesting that you look at it that way. When I wore sizes 24-26, I

> felt like I was trapped inside this giant suit. I hid as much as I possibly

> could being that I didn't want people to see me in that hideous costume. My

> frame of mind was denial that I could actually be that big.

>

> Don't get me wrong. It did take some getting used to, being a smaller

> person. I just feel like this is the real me.

>

> Fraud. No way. You earned your size 6 and don't ever doubt it!

> Dawn

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damn it, damn it ,damn it!!! I know exactly what you are saying!!!

My grandmother just died...going to her funeral this Friday. Luckily

she was in OK health during Thanksgiving an we got a lot of family

shots.

Love the shots...don't get me wrong. I thank God we had this

opportunity because nobody imagined she would be dead less than a

month later.

But, God damn it, I looked fat in the pictures. I was so

disappointed. I have been working so hard, going to the gym 6 times

a week, really trying to half assesed stay with the program, lost 135

pounds.... but I looked fat. Now I know I was upset with the Puerto

Vallarta horse picture because of my rolls...

AM I NEVER GOING TO LOOK NORMAL?????!!!

I get so demoralized when I see the before and after pictures. But I

think only the " winners " post. I wish everyone would so we can get a

better sense of self. I'll be the first if you guys commit.

Love you, smiles,

Vicki A.

> My rational brain knows all this...and my physical eyes see it.

It's just

> the emotional brain that hasn't quite accepted it yet. Even when I

was huge,

> I saw myself as bigger than I was. The mirror has always held

surprises for

> me...and it may have a lot to do with my childhood conditioning.

From the

> age of 8 onward, I had a mother convincing me I was " BIG "

and " FAT " ...I have

> pictures of myself at those ages, and I wasn't...but I was

convinced.

> Another factor could be that in the past, when I would lose weight,

I always

> gained it back plus, as most of us have. So maybe in my head, " it

is only a

> matter of time...so don't get used to this " ....kind of

mentality?!? I, even

> as a kid, learned to look at gifts from my parents with

dread...because there

> were always strings attached to them. Nothing ever

truly " belonged " to me.

> So, maybe a little delving into this, and the whys, will help me

realize that

> this is just a dynamic of a very lousy childhood, and the defense

system that

> I have set up has outlived its usefulness. I've been thinking a

lot about

> this lately, as you can tell...so thinking that 1.) I'm REALLY am

a big, fat

> person...(erroneous info!) I'm average height, and small to medium

boned.

> 2.) So I've lost the weight..it will just come back...(erroneous)

as the tool

> I have and the fear of regain is great, and will keep me straight.

3.) All

> gifts will be taken back if I don't do someone's bidding...

(erroneous) I have

> a wonderful husband, and both parents are gone. Maybe I will be

able to

> accept this yet, with a little work, and correct thinking. Thanks

for

> helping.

>

> Regards~

> Jacque

>

>

> Jacque,

> >

> >

> > That's interesting that you look at it that way. When I wore

sizes 24-26, I

> > felt like I was trapped inside this giant suit. I hid as much as

I possibly

> > could being that I didn't want people to see me in that hideous

costume. My

> > frame of mind was denial that I could actually be that big.

> >

> > Don't get me wrong. It did take some getting used to, being a

smaller

> > person. I just feel like this is the real me.

> >

> > Fraud. No way. You earned your size 6 and don't ever doubt it!

> > Dawn

>

>

>

>

>

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Ok, Vicki.....I have posted some pictures of me. I am a size

16.....still considered a BIG girl and the thighs and butt are the pits.

You can't really see in these pictures, but they were the few that I

have of ALL of me. I can add some of me and the dogs......I think They

show everything. BUT I am NOT skinny by any stretch of the imagination.

I am just ME.

Debbie in Gig Harbor

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