Correction and Thanks for all the thoughtful responses!

[Guest guest]

Correction I mean the soft protein not carbs the carbs are doing me

in. I eat the carbs all the time. I also realized something else

it just hit me my grandma is starting to suffer I think I am making

myself suffer too just a thought and it makes since. I am making

myself feel pain because she is in so much pain.

I am not the sole primary caretaker my mom is but I do have to help

not because I have to but because I want to. We didn't put her on

hospice yet because we have a great team of nurses and they would

only come once a week to adjust her pain meds. They are still

treating her bed sore and her growth in the pubic region. She is

also still getting PT and that would all stop as soon as we put her

on Hospice. She is just not ready for that yet. My great Aunt

Dorthy just left and we are all feeling sadness. She was a great

comfort and encouragement to her. It was so awsome that her sister

could spend my grandma's 88th birthday with her and Christmas.

You all are recommending such great foods that I love to eat if it

weren't for the fistula. I would much rather crunch on carrots and

celerey but they hurt going down and seem to get stuck. I am going

to try and start eating like I did when I had the hypoglycemia so

bad. Eating ever 2-3 hrs and eating string cheese, peanut butter

crackers, and lean lunch meats. I don't notice it so much because I

am eating sugar all the time. I cannot even believe what I can eat

and it doesn't make me dump. I wonder what it will take and how

long until I can reset the dump o meter.

Thanks again for the supprt and encouragement I thought I had hit

bottom I have done it before and it does take hitting bottom for me

to wake up and realize what's going on.

Kristy