Feeling very strange...........

[Guest guest]

Howdy everybody,

It's been several days since I've been able to read any e-mails or post, so I feel so far removed from everybody! I HATE when that happens!!! I miss my family!!!

Anyway, I have been experiencing something this past week or so, and I wanted to run it by you all. My surgery is RAPIDLY approaching (July 9th) and for quite some time there, I was feeling absolute terror. Well, now for the past two weeks (give or take) I have this feeling of calm about it all. I don't think about it hardly at all, as opposed to EVERY WAKING MINUTE, like I did before. Last week I had the majority of my preop testing done, and all I have left is a few blood tests, and then the pre-op physical. I thought that having the tests done would reawaken the fear, but it has not. What I am wondering is: AM I IN SOME SORT OF DENIAL HERE?? I don't THINK that I am, but I find this all very strange.

I'd welcome your thoughts on this!!

Thanks everybody!!

Pam

Pre-op in MD

Dr. Vanguri

Surgery date July 9, 2001

[Guest guest]

I think that is so normal. I get that way to about big events. I think its

just your mind saying all is okay...this is right.

Good luck!!

AJ

pamjams2@... wrote:

>Howdy everybody,

>

>It's been several days since I've been able to read any e-mails or post, so I

>feel so far removed from everybody! I HATE when that happens!!! I miss my

>family!!!

>

>Anyway, I have been experiencing something this past week or so, and I wanted

>to run it by you all. My surgery is RAPIDLY approaching (July 9th) and for

>quite some time there, I was feeling absolute terror. Well, now for the past

>two weeks (give or take) I have this feeling of calm about it all. I don't

>think about it hardly at all, as opposed to EVERY WAKING MINUTE, like I did

>before. Last week I had the majority of my preop testing done, and all I

>have left is a few blood tests, and then the pre-op physical. I thought that

>having the tests done would reawaken the fear, but it has not. What I am

>wondering is: AM I IN SOME SORT OF DENIAL HERE?? I don't THINK that I am,

>but I find this all very strange.

>

>I'd welcome your thoughts on this!!

>

>Thanks everybody!!

>

>

>

>Pam

>Pre-op in MD

>Dr. Vanguri

>Surgery date July 9, 2001

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Pam

I think it just that when you are making a decision as life altering as this...well...it's like picking a wedding gown..after a while all you have is snow blindness from all the white and then...then it clicks...you see the right one right before you....enough of that analogy lol....all I'm saying is you clicked...some part of you realized that this is right and the rest is just in GOD's hands....I have no doubt that I will be scared up to the last moment..and then a calm, such as yours, will take me and and carry me through....besides...there are so many great people here that you will always have support...

Cindy

[Guest guest]

Well Pam,

My surgery is this coming monday and let all I can say

is that I have dropped 4lbs stressing because I am so

scared of the pain, and when I am not scared of the

pain, I am scared of something else going wrong. I

have been a wreck for a week now and as the day

approaches I am getting just a little bit worse. Don't

get me wrong I know that if I dont have this surgery,

things will only get worse but right now I am not a

happy camper. I was even considering asking my doc for

something for my nerves but I think it would be best

for me to just try and learn some stress managment or

something like that ok I rambled enough. I have the

feeling Pam that things are going to turn out well,

but we stress because we need to know the outcome of

the situation before hand. Ok I really have rambled

enough *nervous hug* We will do well!

Lisbeth

Dr. Macura

June 25, 2001

--- pamjams2@... wrote:

> Howdy everybody,

>

> It's been several days since I've been able to read

> any e-mails or post, so I

> feel so far removed from everybody! I HATE when

> that happens!!! I miss my

> family!!!

>

> Anyway, I have been experiencing something this past

> week or so, and I wanted

> to run it by you all. My surgery is RAPIDLY

> approaching (July 9th) and for

> quite some time there, I was feeling absolute

> terror. Well, now for the past

> two weeks (give or take) I have this feeling of calm

> about it all. I don't

> think about it hardly at all, as opposed to EVERY

> WAKING MINUTE, like I did

> before. Last week I had the majority of my preop

> testing done, and all I

> have left is a few blood tests, and then the pre-op

> physical. I thought that

> having the tests done would reawaken the fear, but

> it has not. What I am

> wondering is: AM I IN SOME SORT OF DENIAL HERE?? I

> don't THINK that I am,

> but I find this all very strange.

>

> I'd welcome your thoughts on this!!

>

> Thanks everybody!!

>

>

>

> Pam

> Pre-op in MD

> Dr. Vanguri

> Surgery date July 9, 2001

>

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[Guest guest]

Darlin Pam...

that's not denial.. that being at peace with a good decision, honey.

=) I admit, I skipped all the anxiety & what-ifs, looked at doing my

will, then set it aside... this surgery just felt right.. Seems to me,

you're feelin the same way! Congrats!

Hugs,

Liane =)

> Howdy everybody,

>

> It's been several days since I've been able to read any e-mails or

post, so I

> feel so far removed from everybody! I HATE when that happens!!! I

miss my

> family!!!

>

> Anyway, I have been experiencing something this past week or so, and

I wanted

> to run it by you all. My surgery is RAPIDLY approaching (July 9th)

and for

> quite some time there, I was feeling absolute terror. Well, now for

the past

> two weeks (give or take) I have this feeling of calm about it all.

I don't

> think about it hardly at all, as opposed to EVERY WAKING MINUTE,

like I did

> before. Last week I had the majority of my preop testing done, and

all I

> have left is a few blood tests, and then the pre-op physical. I

thought that

> having the tests done would reawaken the fear, but it has not. What

I am

> wondering is: AM I IN SOME SORT OF DENIAL HERE?? I don't THINK

that I am,

> but I find this all very strange.

>

> I'd welcome your thoughts on this!!

>

> Thanks everybody!!

>

>

>

> Pam

> Pre-op in MD

> Dr. Vanguri

> Surgery date July 9, 2001

[Guest guest]

Pam, I went through the same thing that you are going through. I obsessed

about surgery in the beginning. I talked and talked, and then talked some

more about it, to anyone who would listen! As soon as I found out my date, I

was still a little nervous, but my obsession was gone..... The night before

surgery I was totally at peace with my decision, and no longer freaked out AT

ALL! I hope all goes well for you. I will keep you in my prayers.

Kim B.

Dr. Anthone

DGB/DS 4/18/01

-60lbs

[Guest guest]

Lisbeth,

Thanks for your honest reply!!! I SO feel for you. I went through that stage earlier, and I imagine I will go through it again here very shortly.

Sending you back a "nervous" hug,

Pam

Pre-op in MD

Dr. Vanguri

Surgery date July 9, 2001

[Guest guest]

Pam,

I was more nervous and upset during the waiting period prior to

getting my surgery date. Once I got the surgery date and approval

from the insurance, I was never nervous or worried. Everyone asked

me " Aren't you scared " and my reply was NOPE! I was very calm right

up to walking into the operating room. My dh was a wreck. I would

look at him and want to cry. He was so nervous and upset (worried he

would lose me) that I finally told him that he had to stop. I was

worried about him. So, worried that I made him go home after my

surgery was over (took one look at him in the recovery room and knew

I could not face those eyes) and not come back till the next day. It

was very hard on him.

There is nothing wrong with the way you feel.

Viau

-56 pounds in 11 weeks

[Guest guest]

Call Me crazy but I sense that we are going do great.

I kept dreaming about the day after surgery last night

and I remember in my dreaming thinking " man my butt

doesnt look any smaller " which tells me that I have

some work to do after surgery. Actually we both have

some work to do after surgery! *hugs*

Lisbeth

Dr. Macura

June 25, 2001

--- pamjams2@... wrote:

> Lisbeth,

>

> Thanks for your honest reply!!! I SO feel for you.

> I went through that

> stage earlier, and I imagine I will go through it

> again here very shortly.

>

> Sending you back a " nervous " hug,

>

>

>

>

> Pam

> Pre-op in MD

> Dr. Vanguri

> Surgery date July 9, 2001

>

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[Guest guest]

Pam;

I'm exactly the opposite from you. I have been almost

non-chalant about the whole thing all along. When I actually got a

surgery date I felt numb; as though I couldn't believe it was true. I

guess it just doesn't sink in even though all my doctors marvel at

how focused I've been.

Now that the time really is winding down, I'm beginning to get

this gnawing feeling inside that I'm forgetting something or that I

won't be ready or that I won't have my act together post-surgery.

This has me really worried.

I realize though that my worrying is likely unfounded; it's just what

I do whenever I am anticipating something important. This

surgery represents a birthday present to myself. I'll be switched

the day after my b-day, along with you.

I'll look forward to talking with you on the other side.

Hugs from one switch sister to another!

gobo

Pre-op

Dr.

Surgery Date July 9, 2001

> Howdy everybody,

> Anyway, I have been experiencing something this past week or

> so, and I wanted to run it by you all. AM I IN SOME SORT OF

> DENIAL HERE??

>

> I'd welcome your thoughts on this!!

>

> Thanks everybody!!

>

>

>

> Pam

> Pre-op in MD

> Dr. Vanguri

> Surgery date July 9, 2001