Guest guest Posted January 30, 2007 Report Share Posted January 30, 2007 I want to thank everyone who responded to my letter, as well as those who are holding me in their thoughts & prayers. I made a little poster for my kitchen wall called "Good Things DO Happen!" I've been writing down stuff like docs giving me free samples, being able to sled with my grandkids, etc. I'm also adding the NS family, just to see it several times a day & remind me. Like I said, I've lived with depression for at least 25 years, but this is the first time I've thought abot suicide so often and so analytically. I know how terrible the effect is on loved ones, whicvh is why I wanted to make sure there was so suspicion of it at all. Really the best thing I could come up with was running my car off a cliff, because I wouldn't kill someone else, was pretty likely to accomplish my goal, and it would be believable aftewr my collision with the telephone awhile back, just "spaced out." But there aren't any cliffs around here--maybe something else to put on my poster--so I was forced to keep on keeping on. Now my cousin Lulu is here from San Diego. You oldtimers probably remember me talking about her; she comes to visit every summer and is truly an angel for my mom & me. Her husband is in Chicago for some Navy training, she flew out to see him, then rented a car & drove down here (central Indiana) for a short visit. Something else for the poster. I think I could fill that page up pretty fast if I looked around enough. I know that I'll still have ups & downs, but I believe I'm back on my path. Someone warned about higher risk of suicide when you are feeling better, and that's often true. People who are deeply depressed often don't have the energy to act, and when they start to feel a little better, they may then do something. I have some people now to be accountable to--my doctor, who I'm seeing again tomorrow; Lulu; and you wonderful people! The next couple of days will be really hectic, with everyone trying to get over to see Lulu, so if I'm absent don't start worrying about me. She'll be driving back to Chicago Friday afternoon, then I'll hit the ol' keyboard. I'm attempting to attach a photo of my angelic cousin Lulu. Ramblin' Rose Moderator Valentine’s Day -- Shop for gifts that spell L-O-V-E at MSN Shopping Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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