Guest guest Posted July 8, 2001 Report Share Posted July 8, 2001 I don't post very often (once every two months). I'm scheduled for surgery on July 30 with Dr. Rabkin. I don't think I'm nervous about the actual surgery...is that a bad thing? I have anxiety around my thickly calloused feet being exposed to people. I'm stressed that if something happens to me and I die, someone will have to go clean out my highly unorganized cabinets in my classroom at school and at home. I haven't bought a robe so I don't have to walk the hospital hallway in my butt-exposing designer robe, but that is easy to remedy. I'm nervous about the post-op barium test(I have horific memories around barium exams when I was 5). I have weird guilt issues, like I should just diet and lose the weight rather than have surgery...like I'm cheating or something (I'm usually able to self- talk this one back to reality). I'm crying, but I don't know why...I feel some depression around this surgery...maybe because I'm even in the position where I need it...mortality reality?! I'm open and asking for words of comfort, wisdom...butt kicking...anyone?! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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