...ongoing life with sarcoid

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Hi all! Well, I decided that just as I did putting up all the Christmas stuff...I have to do the same with taking it down. I'll do it bit by bit til I get it done and not stress about all the boxes and bins all over the place. I will Not try to take it all down in one day like I used to do. There seems to be alot to think on and pray over lately. Death always seems to come in multiples of three or four in my life. On Dec. 10th my uncle Bob died, then last week my husband's aunt Beatrice died and just yesterday I learned of a close friend's husband who died in the line of duty as a fireman. That last one hit me harder cuz he was young-ish(in his early 50's) and I also know she has major health problems and two sons...just like me. It made me think what in the world would I do if something happened to my husband...sigh. I realize that I am surrounded by blessings but how 'much' am I

in denial about handling all the things I should be doing?... I need to ask for help from others to help me see the whole picture and do what I can and leave the rest for others to handle once I am gone. I think I worry more about my husband handling me dying than the other way around. I haven't driven a car for almost 6 years...maybe I should go out and try to go for short spurts...just in case I need to do so again. What do you do when you're all alone?... What things should we be talking about? I think I need to start thinking on this. hugs S. ps I can't get disability cuz I was an at-home mom raising kids and don't have enough hours worked to quality and we rent. __________________________________________________