spiritual note --somewhat off topic

March 26, 2001

Hi,

This weekned there was some spiritual talk. I have a belief that I would like

to share if that is okay . I believe that God didnt do this to me . Before

i came to this planet, I believe that I have things I had to do and accomplish

while I was here. My son did as well. I believe that we chose one another with

Gods help of course, to come here and work on these things together. My son

chose to experience autism here and I chose to be his mother. He has things to

learn, he has things to pass on to the world--education, acceptance, compassion.

He gave his health to help others and chose me to help him do that. When I look

back at my life, I realize that it is all working out as it was meant to even

though I was confused and disappointed at certain times.

For examples:

1. My father was not the ideal father in many ways--he was difficult,

argumentative, unable to love me unconditionally-- I chose him and he chose

me(trust me I often think " What was I thinking!) but because of him, I learned

the value of how much we all just want to be loved unconditionally, he taught

me to be a fighter and to question authority as well (only way to survive in

that house) and this has done me good with this autism battle for example.

2. I met my husband at 14. Unusual to have a true love connection at a young

age but I had a lot to work thru to be ready for what was quickly ahead. God

knew what he was doing when the two of us came here to help each other.

3. I always wanted to get my PhD and work with families who were dealing with

their children who had chronic diseases and disorders--how ironic that that is

now me--I am my first case. Think of how much better I will be at this one

day.

I am sorry, I could go on and on but let me summarize by saying that my daughter

was born first : thru this she has learned compassion, acceptance and my son

got the best therapist he has had to date--she has been a key to his

improvement. My son had to be born in the 90's to be a part of the autism wave

(why I had to have both my children early and put phd on hold unexpectedly etc)

Things are working out as they should and though we may not remember what we

decided before we got here, things that dont make sense at one time will often

make sense ten years down the road. My son needs to go thru this for reasons I

cant totally foresee and I need to help him do just that. Doesnt mean I am not

angry with regional center, school didtrict, pharmaceutical companies etc

because that is where I come in in his scheme--I am a part of the change--what

he sacrificied his health for. So each day , I try to make the best of the

situation and improve the world thru the sacrifice my son has made for it.

In God's wisdom and my spiritual growth,

March 26, 2001

,

That was beautiful. What an excellent outlook you have. It makes it all so

much easier when accepted. Then you must be strong and fight. I know that

in the end, I and my family will have benefited from this, for my 2 young

daughters, in the compassion and caring nature they will have for others as

a result of their awareness of differences in my son. They truly adore him,

and I know that God blessed me with them first for a reason: needs

them, and they are the best therapy for him!!! They marvel in all he does,

and they just turned 4 & 5. They are learning early, and it will benefit

them for a lifetime.

Take Care,

Wendi D

spiritual note --somewhat off topic

> Hi,

>

> This weekned there was some spiritual talk. I have a belief that I would

like to share if that is okay . I believe that God didnt do this to me .

Before i came to this planet, I believe that I have things I had to do and

accomplish while I was here. My son did as well. I believe that we chose

one another with Gods help of course, to come here and work on these things

together. My son chose to experience autism here and I chose to be his

mother. He has things to learn, he has things to pass on to the

world--education, acceptance, compassion. He gave his health to help

others and chose me to help him do that. When I look back at my life, I

realize that it is all working out as it was meant to even though I was

confused and disappointed at certain times.

>

> For examples:

>

> 1. My father was not the ideal father in many ways--he was difficult,

argumentative, unable to love me unconditionally-- I chose him and he chose

me(trust me I often think " What was I thinking!) but because of him, I

learned the value of how much we all just want to be loved unconditionally,

he taught me to be a fighter and to question authority as well (only way to

survive in that house) and this has done me good with this autism battle

for example.

>

> 2. I met my husband at 14. Unusual to have a true love connection at a

young age but I had a lot to work thru to be ready for what was quickly

ahead. God knew what he was doing when the two of us came here to help each

other.

>

> 3. I always wanted to get my PhD and work with families who were dealing

with their children who had chronic diseases and disorders--how ironic that

that is now me--I am my first case. Think of how much better I will be at

this one day.

>

> I am sorry, I could go on and on but let me summarize by saying that my

daughter was born first : thru this she has learned compassion, acceptance

and my son got the best therapist he has had to date--she has been a key to

his improvement. My son had to be born in the 90's to be a part of the

autism wave (why I had to have both my children early and put phd on hold

unexpectedly etc) Things are working out as they should and though we may

not remember what we decided before we got here, things that dont make sense

at one time will often make sense ten years down the road. My son needs to

go thru this for reasons I cant totally foresee and I need to help him do

just that. Doesnt mean I am not angry with regional center, school

didtrict, pharmaceutical companies etc because that is where I come in in

his scheme--I am a part of the change--what he sacrificied his health for.

So each day , I try to make the best of the situation and improve the world

thru the sacrifice my son has made for it.

> In God's wisdom and my spiritual growth,

>

March 26, 2001

Hi ,

I just wanted to say that I agree- we have lessons that can only be learned

through our struggles. And I too believe that we have chosen those lessons

that we must learn. It is only through experiences that we can fully

understand the struggles of others, this is the only way to truly love one

another. And in order to reach unity with God we must first find the love

and unity with others while here on this plane.

Of course, in order to get the full effect of these lessons, we must look

on them as such and learn from them. And you have shown how you have

learned, and in your growth you have chosen to pass your knowledge on, (

and in a most caring and selfless way). This seems quite divine to me.

Thank you.

Lita

>This weekned there was some spiritual talk. I have a belief that I would

>like to share if that is okay . I believe that God didnt do this to me

>. Before i came to this planet, I believe that I have things I had to do

>and accomplish while I was here. My son did as well. I believe that we

>chose one another with Gods help of course, to come here and work on these

>things together. My son chose to experience autism here and I chose to be

>his mother. He has things to learn, he has things to pass on to the

>world--education, acceptance, compassion. He gave his health to help

>others and chose me to help him do that. When I look back at my life, I

>realize that it is all working out as it was meant to even though I was

>confused and disappointed at certain times.

March 27, 2001

I am glad I am in with such a spiritual group. It warms my heart that ALL

over America (and even internationally!) there are so many spiritual people

caring for their kids.

:-)

(Los Angeles)