((((((Jenni)))))))))

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Dear Jenni,

My heart and my prayers go out to you!!! I know EXACTLY what you are going

through. I lost my daughter on New Years Eve 2001. I got pregnant with her

just 6 months after my LAP RNY.....I carried her until 22.5 weeks. I started

spotting and when I went to the ER, I was dilated to a 5, they could not do

a thing to stop the labor. I delivered her and she lived for 2 hours. We

held her and had a funeral for her.....it was the most painful thing I have

ever experienced in my entire life ......there is nothing that anyone can

really say to help ease your pain and I know how that feels too......I would

like to be a source of strength and support for you.....I am Terri and I

live in Texas. I am currently just 5 weeks pregnant myself and scared of

another event. When I lost my daughter, Maci Kay......I made a scrapbook for

her....in her memory and I wrote a poem for her....and some other people

from this group wrote poems for her....I kept them all and still have them.

Just know that your little son is an angel now and he is in heaven....that

is my belief.....and eventually you will heal...my prayers go out to you

Jenni. Please let me know if you need an ear to bend, a shoulder to cry on

or you just want to vent or even chat by phone....I am here for you!!!!

God bless you and your family

Terri Wilkes

Burnet, Texas

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Message: 7

Date: Tue, 06 Jul 2004 00:49:05 -0000

Subject: Lost baby this Morning was a Boy afterall.

Hello Everyone I ust wanted to drop in and tell you I lost the baby

this morning, I had been in Labor since Sunday Morning, And I went in

this morning because they had told me before they could not stop it

if it was before 20 weeks. At first they were not sure what was going

on because I started hemroraging, and lost some very large clots but

the baby was still alive until I delivered they did an ultrasound and

I got to See him move around one last time and his little heart was

still beating , He moved his head and his arms. when I got back to

my room my water broke not that long after, I had to stay there

awhile, because of the loss of blood and they finally let me go about

about 40 minutes ago.

They did let me see him but would notlet me take him (I would have

liked to have burried him just a way to feel better I suppose that is

what I had done with the other) They Determined it was a Boy and My

girls and my mom Showed up just when they were done with me, I let

them know right away My 5 year old was determined to see the baby so

after thinking it over and her constantly asking I let her, she

really handled it well, so did my 9 year old. i didn't want to scare

them and he just looked like a miniature baby about as big as my hand.

Thank you everyone for all the help you have given me in the past

months, I am going to let my body rest the remainder of the time the

Dr wanted me to in the first place before I think of Having another

baby,

Jenni

wls 9-15-03 299/165

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