Schedualed my dr appt

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I have to say, this is one thing I have decieded I don't like about

the town I live in. The earliest date I can get in to see the Dr is

May 21st. I am on the cancelation list though. Reminds me of when I

was having surgery actually. Hated my date, and got myself on the

cancelation list. Hopefully it will work out the way it did when I

had surgery, I got in 6 weeks early, lol. So now just waiting for

the phone to ring, lol. I hate the office staff their though. I

told them about the previous miscarriages, and that I was scared, and

about my wls, and they said, well, its not like we could do anything

any earlier anyhow, because if your going to miscarraige your going

to miscarry. gasp. ok, that was not a good thing to say to a scared

over emotional pregnant woman. Oh well, I hear he is the best in

town though, and he delievered all my stepkids. Its just times like

this when I miss Seattle and you can get in in a week. I want blood

tests, I want my levels checked, I want an early ultrasound, lol, I

want I wantI want. Can you tell its all about me, lol. I'm trying

to be patient, and hey, I've realized a way to be less stressed. I

realized that both of my previous miscarriages happened when I had

gotten pregnant exactly one year after getting off depo. I don't

know if that had anything to do with it, but hey, thats an awful big

coincidence, isn't it? eh who knows, but its helping me not spaz.

And, here's a tmi I like, I'm actually filling out my bras again,

woohoo. And thats a good sign, right?? Well, thanks for

listening to me babbling again. I'm betting that I will be kicked

out of this group for spazmatic worrying, or that no one will read my

posts by the end of this pregnancy, lol. I'll try not to spaz out

over everyone too much.

Kris

EDD 12/27/04