Getting it off my chest

[Guest guest]

Hi,

I know this sounds crazy to some but since I have decided to have the

surgery, I too have been eating anything that does not eat me first! Then I

got my packet ready to take to Dr. R on the 11th and my mind has done a

complete turn around. I have given up sodas, icecream and all the other junk

foods I love (except watermelons). I started on Slim Fast again this past

week and I have not cheated once. It does help that my hubby has gone on the

diet with me, though he has cheated on more than one occasion. He just

doesn't know I saw him in the icecream.

I started taking vitamins and the citrucel and believe it or not I do

feel better. I don't think I have lost that much but at least I am getting

my mind over the grieving for the junk foods.

I figure if I have got to go through this surgery to make the loss of

weight stay off, then fight with the ins. company to get the surgery, then

the very least I could do is give it my all.

My whole family knows how much I weigh and that has not been so hard when

they say they never knew how I have endured my life with that much weight. I

wish I had told them a long time ago so they would have understood that for

me it has been HELL. They always thought that I weighed in at 200 not 386.

I guess that's why they thought I was making up all the pain for so many

years.

I guess it really hit me hard when I read my daughter's letter to Dr. R.

She and my son have lived my pain in a way I would do anything to take away.

I hate how this disease has not only hurt me but also what it did to my

children. They deserve a mother to be there for them as they start out in

their new lives.

When I get this weight off, I intend to take my children to Disney World

and ride all the rides with them. I will make it a vacation for us to

remember for a life time.

Can't wait to meet everyone on the 11th of July!

in SC

Wanting to start a new life

with the help of MGBsurgery by Dr. R

If you see someone without a smile,

Give them one of yours.

If you and I should meet and

you forget me, you have lost nothing.

If you meet JESUS and you forget him,

you will have lost everything.

[Guest guest]

Oh ,

I could not have said it better. I have lived in this hell for such a long

time too. I feel like I am just able to keep my lips above the water to

breathe and that is about it. I am younger than some on this list and my

hope is to get skinny before my son remembers me as fat. He is 3. Right now

our activities are very much limited to snuggling and hugging. I do enjoy

these activities with him, however, I want more and he deserves to have more.

That is why the thought of surgery crossed my mind and I found Dr.

Rutledges' web site.

The moment I saw his work and read some posts I was hooked and decided

that if it was the last thing I would ever do, it would be to have this

surgery. The other thing that happened to me was while my husband and I were

on our honeymoon. I knew we were going to Florida and do the theme parks.

So I kept telling myself I would go walking and get used to being on my feet

and that way I could keep up with my husband and not be miserable at the same

time. Well, you guessed it I kept procrastinating and the next thing I know

I am walking down the aisle to marry my husband. I was so out of shape I was

in an extreme amount of pain just standing for the 15 minute ceremony. While

I watched the videotape I could see my legs shacking and me shifting back and

forth on my feet. Well, anyway on to the story. We got to Sea World and I

walked five minutes and gave out. I had to rent a motorized scooter to get

me around. Every night while my husband slept I cried and cried. I was so

embarrassed. He deserved to have a better wife and better honeymoon. When

he and I got home I was so depressed because I really wanted to do the things

with my husband but because I have an addiction to food I was not able to. I

then made the decision to find help now before I die and leave a beautiful

son and a loving husband behind. Even if it meant I was to be hospitalized I

was determined to get this weight off me. I have no quality of life, no

physical activity, I pretty much have a boring life. If I did not have a son

to take care of I would not even bother to get out of bed. THAT IS WHY I

PRAYED AND HOPED AND DR. RUTLEDGES' WEB SITE CAME UP AND THEN I WAS SENT THE

PATIENT MANUAL I KNEW THAT THIS WAS FOR ME THAT I HAD FINALLY FOUND THE RIGHT

TOOL TO GET ME STARTED TO A NEW LIFE. A LIFE WHERE I CAN OUTRUN MY

HUSBAND...A DAY WHEN I CAN DANCE AND DANCE AND DANCE UNTIL I COLLAPSE..A DAY

WHEN A FLIGHT OF STEPS ARE TAKEN AT 2 AT A TIME AND I CONTINUED WITHOUT

LOOSING MY BREATHE..A DAY WHERE I CAN WEAR SHORTS AND NOT THINK TWICE ABOUT

IT...A DAY WHEN I CAN GET ON THE FLOOR WITH MY SON AND WRESTLE AND PLAY AND

PUT HIM ON MY LEGS AND ACT LIKE HE IS AN AIRPLANE. AND THE DAY WHERE MY LEGS

AND ANKLES ARE NOT SWOLLEN AND I CAN WALK WITHOUT WADDLING.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{BIG HUGS TO BRENDA AND EVERYONE ELSE ON

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I also want to thank all of you for the hope and laughter and encouragement I

received from each and every one of you. You guys never hesitated to answer

any questions and to provide insight. For these things I am eternally

grateful.

LARA

[Guest guest]

Flo,

That was a touching reminder of how we need to take care of ourselves.

in Durham and moving to Chapel Hill soon