Guest guest Posted July 23, 2000 Report Share Posted July 23, 2000 In a message dated 7/23/2000 12:34:28 PM Eastern Daylight Time, dinah@... writes: << Does anyone know Barbara Rice? I would certainly like to tell her how much I enjoyed this poem. I found it when I first started looking into wls. I printed and I read it from time to time to keep me going. Dinah in Alabama >> I don't know this lady, but the poem is wonderful. I cried and read it through tears because I live the agony she talks about and I do so want the freedom she now has. Thank you so much for sending this. I'm going to save it and read it every day to keep me focused. Thanks Dinah. Cathy in Lenoir, NC Pre-op BMI 42 A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 23, 2000 Report Share Posted July 23, 2000 Wow - how true. Makes me cry to know that this author, and all of you, know the pain that I, too, feel!!! Joanne in Ohio dinah@... wrote: > Okay, I could never get the poem to go from the scan so here it is. I > thought you girls going this week as well as everyone else would > enjoy it. I found it on another site and I could really relate to > what it says. > > OUT OF HELL > > So many nights, I whimpered and cried, > Thought that my prayers had all been denied. > Stuffing my feelings, ashamed of my plight, > Trying to stop, with all of my might. > > Shoving in cold spaghetti, at three in the morning, > Frying shrimps by the time the daylight was dawning. > Drinking gallons of soda, my heart wildly beating, > Hating my self, 'cause I couldn't stop eating. > > The monster in me would come out to play, > And as much as I begged him, he wouldn't go 'way. > Morning would come, and that is when > The whole vicious cycle woud start once again. > > Tears would be streaming, I felt like a cow, > I wanted to stop, but I didn't know how. > > Boarding a plane, and seeing the fear > In the eyes of the others... " Don't let her sit here! " > Walking a block, and feeling such pain, > That I went right back home to start eating again. > > " Your face is so pretty! Start using your head! " > " Just eat smaller portions, " my family said. > " Put down the fork! Push back from the table! " > That's what my friends said...But I wasn't able. > > I tried every diet to get back on track, > I'd lose weight and then just gain twice as much back! > I thought to myself, " You'll always be fat.. > Accept it, move on! Learn to live with that fact! " > > But something inside me was whispering, " No.. > There must be a way..It HAS to be so. " > I felt a new Barbara was waiting inside me, > And it was her voice, I permitted to guide me. > > I knew I could no longer go on this way, > Desperate and dying, bit by bit, day by day, > So I got on my knees, and prayed for relief, > Then God sent a miracle to lessen my grief. > > A way to stop eating, so crazy I thought, > Went against everything I had ever been taught, > This was my last option, I felt like a jerk > If this didn't do it, Then NOTHING would work! > > So I trusted the doctor, wholly and blindly, > And my God smiled down, completely and kindly. > An unorthodox treatment, but workig so well, > To help lift me OUT of this ongoing hell. > > A surgical miracle, that acts as a tool > To battle the fat, which has made life so cruel. > So as scared as I was, I knew I'd get through it... > Since I was much more afraid not to do it. > > And it went very smoothly, and I'm convinced that > That pain was less than the pain of this fat. > Nothing could hurt more than being this size, > While seeing the pity in everyone's eyes. > > That part of my life is over and done, > But I'll never forget the place I come from. > > I'll always be grateful, I'll always be driven > To bestow others with the support I've been given. > The obsession has lifted, I'm whole and I'm free, > God and my doctor gave life back to me. > > I've learned to eat slowly, I've leaned how to chew > Enjoying my food, as normal folks do. > I eat when I'm hungry, I stop when I'm not, > Being fat, in this life, will not be my lot. > > I eat not for sport, but just to survive, > My whole life is changing...I'm glad I'm alive! > I will reach the goal that I'm aiming toward, > I've truly been blessed. Thank you , Dear Lord. > > The peace that I feel is calming and true, > And for those who still suffer,...I wish it for you. > > Barbara Rice > Reborn 6-23-99 > Open Roux-N-Y > > Does anyone know Barbara Rice? I would certainly like to tell her how > much I enjoyed this poem. I found it when I first started looking > into wls. I printed and I read it from time to time to keep me going. > Dinah in Alabama > > ------------------------------------------------------------------------ > Old school buds here: > http://click.egroups.com/1/7081/3/_/453517/_/964368305/ > ------------------------------------------------------------------------ > > This message is from the Mini-Gastric Bypass Mailing List at Onelist.com > Please visit our web site at http://clos.net > Get the Patient Manual at http://clos.net/get_patient_manual.htm > > To Unsubscribe Send and Email to: MiniGastricBypass-unsubscribe (AT) egroups (DOT) com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 23, 2000 Report Share Posted July 23, 2000 what poem are you talking about?could you send it to me please?Joannie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 23, 2000 Report Share Posted July 23, 2000 oh my gosh...this is a great poem...felt like she was talking about me ....hope I can get to the other side Kendra Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 23, 2000 Report Share Posted July 23, 2000 In a message dated 7/23/2000 1:14:23 PM Eastern Daylight Time, CMo6331945@... writes: > > I don't know this lady, but the poem is wonderful. I cried and read it > through tears because I live the agony she talks about and I do so want the > freedom she now has. Thank you so much for sending this. I'm going to save > it > and read it every day to keep me focused. Thanks Dinah. > > Cathy in Lenoir, NC > Pre-op > BMI 42 > A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step > Me too!!!! Holly Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 23, 2000 Report Share Posted July 23, 2000 I cried like a baby, this poem is so true, thank you for posting this wonderful poem, Joanne Young wrote: > Wow - how true. Makes me cry to know that this author, and all of you, know the > pain that I, too, feel!!! Joanne in Ohio > > dinah@... wrote: > > > Okay, I could never get the poem to go from the scan so here it is. I > > thought you girls going this week as well as everyone else would > > enjoy it. I found it on another site and I could really relate to > > what it says. > > > > OUT OF HELL > > > > So many nights, I whimpered and cried, > > Thought that my prayers had all been denied. > > Stuffing my feelings, ashamed of my plight, > > Trying to stop, with all of my might. > > > > Shoving in cold spaghetti, at three in the morning, > > Frying shrimps by the time the daylight was dawning. > > Drinking gallons of soda, my heart wildly beating, > > Hating my self, 'cause I couldn't stop eating. > > > > The monster in me would come out to play, > > And as much as I begged him, he wouldn't go 'way. > > Morning would come, and that is when > > The whole vicious cycle woud start once again. > > > > Tears would be streaming, I felt like a cow, > > I wanted to stop, but I didn't know how. > > > > Boarding a plane, and seeing the fear > > In the eyes of the others... " Don't let her sit here! " > > Walking a block, and feeling such pain, > > That I went right back home to start eating again. > > > > " Your face is so pretty! Start using your head! " > > " Just eat smaller portions, " my family said. > > " Put down the fork! Push back from the table! " > > That's what my friends said...But I wasn't able. > > > > I tried every diet to get back on track, > > I'd lose weight and then just gain twice as much back! > > I thought to myself, " You'll always be fat.. > > Accept it, move on! Learn to live with that fact! " > > > > But something inside me was whispering, " No.. > > There must be a way..It HAS to be so. " > > I felt a new Barbara was waiting inside me, > > And it was her voice, I permitted to guide me. > > > > I knew I could no longer go on this way, > > Desperate and dying, bit by bit, day by day, > > So I got on my knees, and prayed for relief, > > Then God sent a miracle to lessen my grief. > > > > A way to stop eating, so crazy I thought, > > Went against everything I had ever been taught, > > This was my last option, I felt like a jerk > > If this didn't do it, Then NOTHING would work! > > > > So I trusted the doctor, wholly and blindly, > > And my God smiled down, completely and kindly. > > An unorthodox treatment, but workig so well, > > To help lift me OUT of this ongoing hell. > > > > A surgical miracle, that acts as a tool > > To battle the fat, which has made life so cruel. > > So as scared as I was, I knew I'd get through it... > > Since I was much more afraid not to do it. > > > > And it went very smoothly, and I'm convinced that > > That pain was less than the pain of this fat. > > Nothing could hurt more than being this size, > > While seeing the pity in everyone's eyes. > > > > That part of my life is over and done, > > But I'll never forget the place I come from. > > > > I'll always be grateful, I'll always be driven > > To bestow others with the support I've been given. > > The obsession has lifted, I'm whole and I'm free, > > God and my doctor gave life back to me. > > > > I've learned to eat slowly, I've leaned how to chew > > Enjoying my food, as normal folks do. > > I eat when I'm hungry, I stop when I'm not, > > Being fat, in this life, will not be my lot. > > > > I eat not for sport, but just to survive, > > My whole life is changing...I'm glad I'm alive! > > I will reach the goal that I'm aiming toward, > > I've truly been blessed. Thank you , Dear Lord. > > > > The peace that I feel is calming and true, > > And for those who still suffer,...I wish it for you. > > > > Barbara Rice > > Reborn 6-23-99 > > Open Roux-N-Y > > > > Does anyone know Barbara Rice? I would certainly like to tell her how > > much I enjoyed this poem. I found it when I first started looking > > into wls. I printed and I read it from time to time to keep me going. > > Dinah in Alabama > > > > ------------------------------------------------------------------------ > > Old school buds here: > > http://click.egroups.com/1/7081/3/_/453517/_/964368305/ > > ------------------------------------------------------------------------ > > > > This message is from the Mini-Gastric Bypass Mailing List at Onelist.com > > Please visit our web site at http://clos.net > > Get the Patient Manual at http://clos.net/get_patient_manual.htm > > > > To Unsubscribe Send and Email to: MiniGastricBypass-unsubscribe (AT) egroups (DOT) com > > ------------------------------------------------------------------------ > Special Offer-Earn 300 Points from MyPoints.com for trying @Backup > Get automatic protection and access to your important computer files. > Install today: > http://click.egroups.com/1/6347/3/_/453517/_/964370352/ > ------------------------------------------------------------------------ > > This message is from the Mini-Gastric Bypass Mailing List at Onelist.com > Please visit our web site at http://clos.net > Get the Patient Manual at http://clos.net/get_patient_manual.htm > > To Unsubscribe Send and Email to: MiniGastricBypass-unsubscribe (AT) egroups (DOT) com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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