I feel like the carpet has been pulled out from under me!!!

July 30, 2000

I haven't been able to read my daily digest now for about a week. My

parents came up from Louisiana to visit and also had my grandson

(he's 10 months old and I have no trouble go ing on and on about

him). I was finally able to read all the daily digest dating back to

Monday. WHAT A FRIGHT!!! I, like most everyone else has desparately

sought an answer to this problem my entire life. Now that I finally

thought I was close I feel like I am the cart horse chasing the

carrot. In fact, I think I have just had my first panic attack.

I know what it is like going in five thousand different directions

and never being able to catch up, or take time off to smell the roses.

WE HAVE TO FIND A SOLUTION THAT CAN WORK FOR ALL OF US PLEASE.

I didn't want to risk that BC/BS would turn me down so I was going

through the step to make sure that that very thing did not happen. I

have my appointment at the sleep clinic here in Myrtle Beach to be

diagnosed with sleep apnea. My appointment with my PCP has not been

scheduled yet, but he has been seeing me for the last 2 years and

knows all of my problems are associated with my obesity. I have read

some very promising ideas and suggestions. I have not read anything

that would suggest any of us would not be willing to pay some kind of

fee for insurance filings. If my precautionary steps are going to

put me at the rear of the pack I don't want to take them. the other

thought is I have waited 40 years, I can wait 4 months longer too!!

But insurance is what I counted on to pay the bulk of this surgery.

I have a daughter that will be entering college soon. Her dream is

non other than Duke University. At an average cost of $32,000 yearly.

Her chosen course of major is bio-med engineering. I know that there

will be alot of scholarship money but my cost will be there too!!

I know that I am being very, very selfish and even somewhat self-

centered in this decision. I am also very desparate. I just needed

to sound off a bit.

Love and encouragement to all

A-J

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